the27millionthkiss/blgspt

revive

2008-06-19T09:18:00.004-09:30

things been crazy.
our love affair's ups and downs.

haha,
seems like i've become,
a really selfish moronic ass.

dont you think?
i guess you do agree,
to a certain extent.

sayin that i never wanted,
to be like this, is no use.
cos i already am acting like i am.

im sorry. really, i am.
i dont know if what i say. will help.

i love you still.
i wanna try.
i just need some directions.
alot of patience.
a whole lot of breathin space.
NO arguments,
alot of love & makeouts.
multiple movie trips.
handling my temper for me.
holdin my hand to calm me down.
and a ton of understandings.

i suddenly feel like the HULK.
;( oh myyyy

that,
can you do?

cos i know,
im lost, without you.
i really am.

im sorry
if you've shed buckets of tears.
and they aint stoppin'

i feel like some bigtime loser.
oh dearest :((

Oh say I love you so
But you know,
oh, you know you can trust
We'll be holding hands once again
All our broken plans
I will mend
I will hold you tight
so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my hand into yours
Thinking oh is it love?

therefore my words are here,
To ease every fear
And dry up every tear
And make it very clear
I kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?

i promise you,
i'll never leave.
from now,
till my heart stops tickin.

Great Depression

2008-06-05T23:59:00.007-09:30

been ages since i last stepped in here.
prettymuch missed this place.
and the sillythings i used t blog.

wth, ppl grow, ppl change.
odd. guess i'll be back bloggin prettymuch.

things been crazy.
life's hasnt been good nor easy.
cranked up, screwed up and totally exhausted.
im almost always tired.
odd huh?

midterms are in two weeks?
i swear i havent exactly been studyin.
& im so gna screw it bad this time.

sometimes, all i wna do all day,
is hide in bed, alone, or w the right person.

i miss my girlfriend.
very very much. seriously.

2008-03-14T05:26:00.002-09:30

lol sorry folks.
blog's prettymuch closed for now.

find me @
SUNDOWNTEQUILAS.LJ instead man (:
and yes, feel free t leave a comment or anything!

2007-12-31T02:35:00.000-09:30

So,

Whatever Happened After That Day?

Bye world.
Hello Cheryl, im goin off w you tnite.

2007-12-29T02:45:00.000-09:30

11.

last post.
im closin the blog after this.

life's been great w you.
have always been. no doubts.
no no no regrets. really no.
outta all the many,
yes, youre the best i ever had.
even more than the one,
you've always been wearied abt.

yeahs, shit happens.
it always does. no matter how good
things may appear t be but hell,
it always happens.
like we're sorta stuck w it or smthng.
you & i, we nvr had it easy baby.
we had t work so hard.
well, im bloodyhell takin my chances.

lets just put it this way.
one song, you made me listen..
had me cryin a tsunami.

one song, made me pick up the phone..
and dial yr number.

one song, made me beg you back.
one song, made me choke on my tears.
one song, give me all the courage i needed
fr that phonecall.

yeahs.
and frm now on..
nothing else matter anymore.

its just you. you. you. & you.

i wna stand by you.
through all the different times. good/bad.
to pull you through.
to get you by.
i wna hold yr hands, like..
i'll nvr let it go.
& in return, you'll hold mine.
i wna make you smile.
make you happy.
i'll pick you up, on my back...
and walk this road w you.

yes, when it comes t yr sensitivity.
i wna give in.
cos i believe, eventually..
i'll be able t change you. or rather.
tht nasty personality of yrs even you despise.

i wna change you. like you change me.

its 9months now..
plus 2months of hilarious courtship.

and going.
and going.
and going.
and going.
and going.

no hush. listen t me.
its still going. and silly,
its you.
it has always been.

& i knew it.
right frm the start.

its you.
im gna fall inlove w.
im fallin inlove w..
i still am fallin inlove w.
frm the moment i met you 2yrs back,
we both knew.
something was there.
no, you cant deny it.
and you know it better than me.

no dearest, im stayin.
and thats final.

no doubts.
no denials.
no space fr negotiations.

cos im not leaving.

im bringin you along w me.
through all these.

and that is final.

824pm;
29thDecember2007
9months2days&counting..

'Lie on me, & hear my heartbeat.
& when it stops beating, is when i'll
stop lovin.

ps: i love you, cupcake.
i swear, youre fabulous.

2007-12-26T07:09:00.000-09:30

youre so
FABULOUS..

I CAN HARDLY STOP.

i wna drive you in a corner.
and kiss you silently.

MERRY CHRISTMAS C !!
-& i frkn thank god i've got you. :)

yes, im shoutin out.
cos i have a damn blog t shout this out.

I LOVE YOU.
I F*RKIN LOVE YOU.
LIKE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU.
SEEEEEE.
HOW MUCH LOVE IS THAT.
THAT'S A LOT. -grins like crazy

dear santa,
this christmas i want nthing.. .
only a tiny tiny request.

can you please.
pretty pretty please.
staple-gunn my girlf t me?

i hate pots of leaves. i swear.

2007-12-20T09:58:00.000-09:30

" Good night "

" nights "

" yeahs "

" okay.. "

" Bye "

Dial Tone...
Dial Tone...
Dial Tone...

wretched shrieks.
countless tv.
endless amt of calories.
sleepless nights.
frkin nightmares.

yet, im still holdin on t you.

gotta pick myself up,
where do i start?

Remedies for a fever. a sorethroat & flu.
1) panadol
2) lozenges
3) cold remedies sachets full.
4) huge amt of sleep
5) plenty of water

Remedies for a Heartbreak.
1) bang the wall
2) hang yourself
3) jump down frm the building
4) stab yourself
5) frkin cry a river & move on

Still a lil bit of your ghost. yr weakness.
Still a lil bit of your face, i haven kissed.

if things were THAT easy.
You wouldn be You. &
I wouldn be Me.

Well, We just wouldn be Us no more.
So Cmon. look at me.
Now what do you see.
Do you know me anymore?

im just a wrecked soul.

And right now, its US im looking for.

labels :

sleepless nights. disturbed mind.
yet still inlove. yet not movin on.
yet still wanting you this much.
yet still lovin' you this much.
so if youre not the one, then tell me,
who is?

2007-12-17T06:30:00.000-09:30

ha.
hahaha
hahahahaha

i godddamnit love my girlf.

:DDDDDDDD

okay,
xmas party on sunday~

DEAR ALL.
bring extra clothes.
no CONDOMS. no cigarettes.
yes, liqour. yes, sex. yesyesyes..

EH LA.

i still love my girlf alot. :DDDD

2007-12-13T18:54:00.000-09:30

LOVE IS SUICIDE

Oh my agony
Know that I will never marry,
Baby I'm just soggy from the chemo
But counting down the days to go
It just ain't living
And I just hope you know

That if you say..
Goodbye today
I'd ask you to be true

‘Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
‘Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

2007-12-12T03:22:00.000-09:30

HOLLLLLAAAAAA!!

PICTURES FRM MCR UPPPPP.
PLEASE SCROLL & COPY/PASTE.

AND HELL,
THE BAND'S ONE HELLUVA SEX.

I SWEAR,
FRANK IS THE DAMN ASSHOLE
THAT HAD ME JUMPING ON MY
GODDAMN FEET.

THE REST ARE AWESOME TOO.
& GERARD WAS BEING SUCHA DOLL.

URGH.

IM HIGH ON THEM.
LOVE-STONED.

CALL ME CRAZY.
BUT IF YOU'VE BEEN THERE,
THEN HEY,
MAYB YOU'LL BE WORSE OFF
THAN ME.

COS APPARENTLY,
SOME SUCKERS ARE STILL HIGH
TILL TODAY...

EHLAAAA.
MCR'S THE SEX!

2007-12-12T02:49:00.000-09:30

2007-12-05T00:08:00.000-09:30

HELLO ALL. IM BACK!

hahaha. just gna give you a slight impression

i have about japan.

1) its HELL clean.

damn. the toilets and all, even the public ones

are amazingly clean and dry. like spark clean.

gees. reflects a real bad impression on our own

public toilets really. & hey, their toilet seats

have heater of their own? so when you sit down..
you'll go " ahhhh... so warm. " tht kinda thang.

2) the food there is GREAT!

honestly. theres no other place where you'd

be able t get real fresh seafood. like sea urchins.

salmon. tuna. and even pufferfish! :D gosh.

they were AWESOME. i swear t it man. plus

the rice there are like damn addictive. so no doubt,

i bet i gained a few pounds or something. haahaha!

3) the air is really fresh

Japanese love their environment. so everything 's

bout environmental-friendy. so hel it, the air there

is freakin fresh. no doubt tht its really cold though.

and the service there is really good. all of the waiters

and waitresses, anybody who works, DAMN, they're

all really nice and great man! hahaha. damn friendly.

full of energy and constantly smiling? geees.

4) Milk & Veges there are of high quality.

the fresh milk is like 3times better than our HL milk?

hahaha. and the veges, are all real sweet and tasty.

like sweet potatoes, pumpkin and all. gees. they're great.

esp the strawberries! WHOA. awesome! funny thing is,

bananas and pineapples are really expensive there

but strawberries are kinda cheap man. whereas

in singapore, its the direct opposite.

Erms. thts about all i have t give?

shall post a few pictures man! :)))

Day1. lil girl was so shagged after the plane ride.
Day2? lol. i think so. snow sledge. mountain top.

on the way down in the cable car.

hokkaido zoo! hell. the polars are HUGE. like HUGEHUGE!

the penguins aint like the one you see here man!
freakin boy tht went " kawaii nei!" when he saw the penguins!

siblings! hahahaha. playin w snow man.
lil girl. (: isnt she awfully cute?

gettin ready t snow mobile!
on the mobile itself man. crazy , it was deadly fun!
chocolate factory. last day!
kay, ignore us. we're mad.
Jiejie and my lil girl ! ;)

someday, i'll build one liddat in my yard. I WILL.
hahahaha. lol sorry, no comments.
can you see me ?
ANA planes. damn. its freakin cute. pokemon please!
Joyce. :)) pal frm the tour man. im sppsedly her ex crush
look-alike or something. aww. tht girl have her boyf t
pick her up from the airport man!

Right...
HIGH LIGHT OF THE TRIP -
I FREAKIN BUMP INTO MY GIRLF THERE!

HAHAHA. OKAY. YOU CAN SLAP ME.
I WAS SO SHOCKED I COULDN STOP LAUGHIN.

SEE. THIS IS FATE.

HA.
HAHA.
HAHAHAHA.

K, NO MORE UPDATES TILL SHES HOME! :DD

2007-11-26T19:25:00.000-09:30

im waiting fr nthng but t see if,
youre jus gna sit there

& watch me walk away.

2007-11-25T20:59:00.000-09:30

Unwell

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night
hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
Feeling like
Im headed for a breakdown
And I dont know why

But Im not crazy,
Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be...

Ive been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon theyll come to get me
Yeah, theyre taking me away...

2007-11-24T11:03:00.000-09:30

453am in the mornin.

up. filling up a diary.
i miss her, so damn much.

a bad sorethroat.
an aching body.
a running temp.

isnt exactly the best thing t
live w. oh well.

shes fast asleep.
tht poor thing. :(
must be worn out after an entire
day filled of events.

well, if youre readin this.
do know, i love you. (:

2007-11-21T06:31:00.000-09:30

chillout @ clubstreet.

i swear, you guys shld really
take a walk there and look at
all the fanciful clothes and captivating
nightlife includin the damn posh
cafes and diners plus the high-end
designer clothes shop.

managed t get into one.
HELL. one damn jacket cos 359bucks!
i sew myself also no need so expensive!

had a short walk t the train station
and a sneak at red spot museum?

my dear girlf was so exhausted after

her 8hr long first-day-of-work that she

literally has no apetite other than a humongous
CONTAINER ( yes, its a container. i swear) of
YAM MILK SHAKE! haahaha.

Car&boyf shared some cheesebaked rice wheareas
i had, this huge portion of pork ribs rice + redbeans
ice blended w sago. WAHAHAHA. all at the newly
opened HONGKONG CAFE!

sent girlf off t the bus stop, w sillytalks on all their scandals.

lol. please, my scandal is too funny to be me. ;DDDDD hahahha.

headed t topshop, graniph then bugis street! ((:

small drizzle through the night. trained hm.

thts about all for tdae! (((: HAHAHA. im high.
damn the 7/12. oh well.

2007-11-20T21:23:00.001-09:30

checked out sme real cool gadgets.

introducing t you...

Science & Sons - Phonofone II

constructed mainy frm ceramic.
a realllllllllllllllllllllll beauty, *whistles*

Costs bout $875 cad ? lol. yesyes. i frkin wna get it.

okay. thts all. the others are like crap. BUT,
if you do wna check them out..

LOOK UP,
Trivoli Gold Pal or Hulger P* PHONE up in
google! (((: loves all.

2007-11-20T06:39:00.000-09:30

Gees.

i m.tired. like. oh really. tired.
i guess first 2days of work was good?

OG's freakin slack. like REALLY~slack.
just sit and rot there for a couple of hrs.
Vj and the others are great though.
hilarious ppl. hahaha. saying good evening
t pretty girls tht walk by and al while i
struggle t memorise the menu and the
minute variety of dressings & sauces.

for exp.
Chicken Chimichangas goes w Avocado
Ranch Dip.

whereas Seafood Chimichangas goes w
Worchester Sauce Dip.

Even more hilariously, Chips&Dip have
4 different kinda sauce. Salsa, Pinto Beans,
refried beans & chile corncarne.

i seriously almost faint frm memorising the
goddamn menu. ohfrk. Even caeser salad
needa differentiate luhh.

well. 1st day of theory day. then come 2nd day :
PRACTICAL.

Hey, not bad man. lol. Far east's a great place w
nicenice ambience & alot caucasians. Damn.
& im the only one w singaporean english accent
cos my colleagues are all non-singaporeans &
majority of customers are angmohs frm all ova
the place ?! rofl .

JOKE. but i like my job !! haahaahha
and all the ppl there. really great. k man .
i guess thts all for nowwwwwww...
will post some pics soon. I PROMISE.

love yall.

2007-11-16T21:29:00.000-09:30

We,

have graduated.

officially.

well. grad night's a failure honestly.
plain pathetic. vids jammed.
tears of anguish shed. load of craps.

pictures taking were good though.
hahaha. loadsa fond memries i bet.

yesyes. alas, we've all graduated.

funny. i dont feel much othr than
a slight sense of pity. gees.

WILL LOAD PICS UP SOON. ((:

after this, its work. work. & work.
hahaha. & girlf. & girlf. & girlf.

Now, whose the one on yr mind,
just as youre leaving ?
Labels : Unchained Melody. & i thank you.

2007-11-14T23:27:00.000-09:30

(: (: (: (: (:

i, have got a job ! (: (: (:

santa fe santa fe santa fe !
hahahaa.
okay. try yr luck findin me cos i'll
be all over the place.
far east. marina south. or centre point!

AYE. (((:

cant wait. cant wait.
but somehow, attached to it, is a
sense of dread and the problems it'll bring.

geees.
anyway, life's been so dead. i haven had
much t do. well, at least there's the japan
trip tht im lookin forward t ! hahaa.
28th 28th. yet once more, anticipation
found itself in a pool of black dread.
2 weeks of waiting. damn it.

shit happens. always. dont it ?

Well,
you couldnt be that girl I adored
You dont seem to know,
dont seem to care what your heart is for
But I dont know her anymore
Theres nothing where she used to lie
My conversation has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings fine..
Im torn.

its just one more step.
between me&you.
NO ONE ELSE.
& we'll see. if we'll stay.
or choose t separate.

2007-11-12T06:06:00.000-09:30

gosh, shes freaky,
but i like it.

what do you care?
what do you care?
ait , drop the pretence.
cos we're goin in circles,
ovr & ovr again.

so why do you care?
cos i aint givn shit no more.

2007-11-09T02:25:00.000-09:30

dont you jus love authentic chnse school?

HAHAHAHHAHAA. omfgosh.

2007-11-07T03:45:00.000-09:30

i feel so F*RKIN wasted !!!!!

i have NOTHING T DO.

NOTHING T DO.
NOTHING T DO.
NOTHING T DO.

okay. bored. ring me up.
or date me. date me. date me.

:D

30th oct

2007-10-31T03:04:00.000-09:30

was ramaging thru some of the stuffs
you got me over the last 10mths? lol..

yesyes. includin those before march.
funny, i've nv realised tht these words
dint exist in my vocabulary till you came forth.

"crush"
"tsk you luh!"
"handsome" (this is so outta point)
"cupcake.."
"spongecake!"
"you know, like love.. like love love?" :D

then over the days,
phrases became words.
and words, well they become alphabets.

"TTFN!"
"F.I.W!" ...
" shes cute luhh. " they claim.
& im glad you agreed.

omgosh. jus slap me please. ;)

i never thought,
i could smile so much & laugh so hard,
resultin in cramps all over my face.

uhh yes. how can i forget?
cramps seizing over yr HANDS. lol.

" to have and to hold "

i like precious moments clay figurines.
probably cos you drew them well.
okay, not real well. but wtheck.
enough t sweep me off my feet. ;)

& i never knew,
babies can get amazingly quiet
simply by just doin nothing but
EAT. and SLEEP. hahah.

i miss you dearest.

i do.

things get tough.
well, the tough gets going.

flipping through all the things we had.
well, we're more than just these quarells man.

definitely more than that.
like more, more you know? haha.
im beginnin t pick up phrases i haven used
in a long time man. ;)

& right up till this point.
things havent change. not one bit.

to me, youre still the best girlf arnd.

even if we'll nv end up finish watchin movies tgether.
even if all we do is try to make out and end up laughin
like crazy.
even if things get real tough.
even if things get more than bimbotic.
even if things are more chemical than physical.

even if..

whatever things may be.
oh dearest. you're more than all that.

i believe.
everything happens fr a reason.
i dont just bump into you randomly.

& right now,
im here. & im yours.
& i wna make an impression in yr life.

all our mistakes. well, lets jus quote frm you.

"如果你是错，我不要对."
”如果想你是犯罪，枪毙我会比较干脆. "

ｉ　ｌｏｖｅ　ｙｏｕ　（：

2007-10-30T01:53:00.000-09:30

how deep is yr love?

how deep... is yr love?
i really needa know.

cos i miss you,
body&soul so strong..
that it takes my breath away.

heartbeat,
why do you miss when my baby,
kisses me?

how can you mend..
a broken heart?

imagine me&you, i do.
i think about you day&night..

precious precious tears.
this aint a place for you t be.

& i dnt wanna be alone.
not now. not tnight. ..

byebyebye.

2007-10-18T04:20:00.000-09:30

if only...
if only...
if only..
if only...

okay. wtheck. just drop it.

Just Do It.

like Now. Less Talk. More Work.

ohgirl, know what youre doin t me.
imma lost kid without you, c. ((:

2007-10-13T05:23:00.000-09:30

HELLO.

im gna burn myself w ariel.

bye world.

i hate all this frkinshit frm you.
so just get lost, cos i can frkin live..
w/o you. whether i like it, or not.

2007-10-08T03:32:00.000-09:30

as always, shit happens.

yes, that's right.
that's what dearest likes to say..
" shit happens. "

people change.
we all do, dont we?

couple of funny things happened
a few days back.

smses. msges. calls?
ppl who've disappeared for awhile..
suddenly flashed back.

hey, but wthll.

hahaha. leave it ppl.

i've moved on.

WE. have moved on.

all of us. the lot of us.

i've changed.

yes youre right.

we've all changed.

real different & all.

i dont want any of the past back.

nope, not one single bit.

life's good.

cheryl,
you've been the sweetest thang.

((:

those past. drop it pls.

yes dearest. drop it.

i've found something more.

and its you.

others? are plain nothing.

my current friends are great.

life's fine. kp it this way.

dearest.
dearest.
dearest.

i've changed.
things have changed.
ppl changed.

i've moved on.

and its you,
im lookin forward to living w.

2007-10-04T02:28:00.000-09:30

And she's calling a cab..
While he's having a smoke..
And she's taking a drag..
Now they're going to bed..
And my stomach is sick..
And it's all in my head..
But she's touching his-chest..
Now, he takes off her dress..

I just can't look its killing me-
And taking control..
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea..
Swimming through sick lullabies..
Choking on your alibis..
Open up my eager eyes.

CHEAP THRILLS MAN.. HAHAHA!
SORRIE I REALLY SHLD BE STUDYIN.
BUT. IM REALLY REALLY BOREDD.

the damn guy above is hell amazing pls!
hey people, worship him man.

MR BRIGHTSIDE. -grins

HILARIOUS. HAHAHAHA. :DDD
okay. im stopping. this is drivin me insane.
hahahhahhahahahaha.
love yall peeps. adieu.

2007-10-03T03:58:00.000-09:30

days went by with boredom as usual.
studyin is so not my thing.. shucks.
major feelin i'll screw O's. terribly.

doesnt matter.
met up w C' today. not too bad..
did amaths and organic chem.
and alot alot alot...
CHEMISTRY. grins-

hahahaha.

okay. im kinda crazy.
im beginnin to love sitting alone at the
bus stop.. watching the endless trails of cars
go by. flashing lights, on off on off on off.
shrugs-

right man.
PPL MUGHARD for OLVLS. :DD

loves man!

2007-09-29T20:21:00.000-09:30

& then i look back.

i forgot...that i was,
once your crush.
once your handsome.
once the one who puts a smile on
your face daily.
once the one who gave you cheek cramps.
once the one who cud speak to you till
630 in the mornin without thunderstorms
in between.
once the one whom you'll be obsess w.
once the one you could sit staring at.
once the one..
once the one..
once the one..

Now,

we just sit and feel the most intensify
silence between us we cant deny or avoid.

and we cant explain whats goin on.
and how to go about solving it.

cos all we do is throw our tears out.
and pretend nothing's wrong after tht.

but baby, this aint working.
& im terribly sorry.. this is breakin.

im just crazily upset.
that im not enough no more.

Maybe. Just Maybe.

2007-09-29T18:04:00.000-09:30

its been awhile since i last blog.
been worn out by late night mugging,
crazy awful quarrells w the girl,
endless classes in the day.
tell me, ppl... what is this?

couple of weeks left to O's.
this is NO good.
studying schedule needs to kept
and adhered to.
but really, distractions can be real great
at times.

pL funfair was kinda dry.
probably cos' i barely knew many there.
met old friends.
and some friendly aquaintances.
pretty boy was there too.
pleasant surprise.

got the day by meetin the clique at j8.
cartel 's freeflow of bread is the kick.
haha. sorrie, im a hopeless..
what do you call that?
hmm. steph calls it..
" bread-tong. fan-tong. cake-tong.."
and finally, "pastries-tong." -.-
i sppose we're really upping our
level of humour. HAH.

yesyes. i've got crazy obsessions w all
those above..

things aint gettin easy now.
no, we're both having it hard.
really, at times i really felt like i could
just give up all of us.
this is bersek.
im sorry if im not enough.
but honestly, this is not the way how
things should be going.
girl, i love you.
please, we needa get a grip on things.
desperately.
those late night cryings aint doin us good.
no, i feel weak and unstable.
we both deserve more than this goddamn
shit we're goin through.
& im still waiting for things to get better.
but how? when? soon? or never?

these are qns we'll nv get to answer.

chicks,
they come & they go.
the one that's here to stay, will stay.
the rest, they just fade away somehow.

even so,
there's still so much in you,
i haven seek and no, at this point of time..
letting go, is not the best way out.

kids,
bury your heads into the books right now,
bcos if you dont do it now,
you'll never get a chance to do it.
we deserve good results.
good schools. good jobs. good whatever.
Only if you give it all your best now.
do it.
you'll get it.

2007-09-23T04:25:00.000-09:30

im 29days away from O levels.

im not-workin...

yet im UNDER-FARKED.

TELL ME... what the hell is goin on?

&(*&#$(&*$(*(&(@&#@$)(_!!!**&!(&$!(!!

2007-09-21T04:50:00.000-09:30

debriefs were dreadful.
terribly superbly dreadful.
okay. let's skip this whole results thing.

to enquire bout my results.
1) call me.
2) sms me.

if you don't have my no...
it probably mean ...
youre not close enough to me.
so hm. yeahs.
so i wouldn bother tellin you bout myself.

5 on 5 sakae buffet @ parkway today.
damn i was so bloated i cldnt eat dinner.
and we lost luh.
wlao. the other table got pinglynn...
we confirm lose luhh.. lol.
we ate 49plates okay mind you!
we still lost!
they ate 50over.... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LMAO.

am tired.
shall head out to stdy 2mr man.
miss my girlf.
curses-

okay. im outta here.

2007-09-19T03:17:00.000-09:30

tired.tired.tired.
im not as strong as i appear to be.

there're things tht ..
breaks me apart.

and i believe,
you're one of them.

Say hello,

drag me close to you..

and kiss me goodbye.

So have you been to a place like this?

To see your breath as it paints against the sky

The fever is near

I wish you were here.

2007-09-17T07:06:00.000-09:30

awake @ 1237am w an amaths ppr 2mrrow.
aint the smartest thing to do.
but wtheck, there're others online, crappin the
hell out w meeeeeeeeeee. aye? lmao.

day spent in slumbers.
slept slept slept my hrs away.
terrible, i needa shake this damn habit off.
all i do is slp and eat and slp and eat.
if its just slping. then its OKAY...
but if its slping & eating! WHOA. watch it man.
this is fatal.

2more paprs to go.
im expectin a 30 for my L1r5 this time.
guess what.
i've outgrown the thought of bein look upon like
some dope shit who simply cant study.
well, the o's results will tell man.

i'll be spectacular.
like the other 26kids in my damn class.

so will evryone whose gnna mug.
lol. mug like eff*. mug till one's ill,jelly,weak.
and lose a dozen weight off tht waist o' yours.

If you feel discouraged
That there's a lack of color here
Please don't worry lover
It's really bursting at the seems
Absorbing everything
The spectrum's A to Z. . . . .

& all the kisses will tell.

2007-09-15T16:43:00.000-09:30

A lonely September

am sittin here all by myself
just tryin to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out'
cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close
and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back,
but I know you did

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have
one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself
with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone
it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and
everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

And I didn't mean to meet you then
we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love,
but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back
'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did...

so please baby,
dont you leave me here alone
on this cold september night.

2007-09-14T04:41:00.000-09:30

finallllly........
goddamn weekends are here.

the week's a bitch.
making me mug like some god forsaken shit.
i've never studied so hard in my entire
timespan as a student.
terrrrrible.
fell in and out of flu & fever.
diet went haywire.
brain too.
worse still, emotions hit skyhigh and deepsea-low.
scaring the shit outta myself over the
next few papers in the following days.

hit rock bottom just before the day of my
3 consecutive papers marathon of
maths, lit then geography.
rang my girl.
thrown my emotion&tension out.
by a pathethic method.
well, she had it bad.
and if you think writin 6 seqs in less than
4hrs is easy. think again.
suffered from handcramp.
shaking like shit after the damn geo paper
tht last till 4pm.
headed hm w a fever.
slept till 2am from 7plus at night.
mugged for next day's chem.

lit ppr & maths ppr2 today.
kinda decent i sppse?
better than the others.
finally, quality time spent w
my girl. awwwwwwwwwww.
miss her like im losing it - big time.
am shagged.
3 more pprs to go.
will kp this momentum goin man.
aint wanna lose nothing.

bye world.
my girl's the sex in the sheets.

2007-09-09T03:42:00.000-09:30

to all late muggers :

god-bless you.
and if you flunk prelims.
ITS　OKAY!
just mug harder for O's.

mon - physics pp2/ social studies

tues - amaths pp1/ ehistory

wed - maths pp1/ lit pp2/ geog pp2

thurs - chem pp2

fri - maths pp2

okay. thts all. im tired&sleepy&stressedout
&pimply&tired&stressedout&lovesicked.

k. BYE.

2007-09-02T06:35:00.000-09:30

outtttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt the whole saturday. :)

life's been TEDIOUS.
majorly TIRING EXHAUSTING & FASTPACED.

21chapters of physics.
goddknows howmany chapters of chem.
amaths&emaths.
geography&literature.
history.

ALL to be done in ONE week.

claps-

i give up on SS. for prelims.
not placin much hope on amaths too.

this is crazy.
god help me.
cos i feel like im dying......

to the CLIQUE :

hey peeps. brace yourselves man.
we're in for a real tough ride.
majorly bumpy one.
thank god you guys are here w me.
i love you pppl.
BIGGGGGGGGGGGG timee. (:

to my dearest dearest dearest girlfriend :

(: hey babe. im gonna get real bz.
do try to understand alrite? of cos...
i'll try to dig out as much time as i can for you.
promise! and love, study hard for promos too
alright? you'll do fine. no worries.
and i'll be here. hokies? (:
i love you ! (:

im tired. im goin to bed NOWWWWwww.
nothing really matters much now.
other than my results. my frens.
and most importantly. my girlfriend.

PRELIMS. zomg. faints-
someone....
teach me how to manage my time!
zomg. zomg zomg.
zomFFFFFFg. :(((

2007-08-27T03:34:00.000-09:30

PRELIMS.
STARTS. .. .
TODAY!!!

and guess what ?
we wenna catch a movie after our english ppr!
HAHAH.
feels like Olvl's over instead.
crazyy ~
clique split 7,5.
7- dead silence. . 5- rush hr 3.
HAHA. chris tucker likes me. for i speak like him.
and i go.. " DOPE~~!!"
and dead silence is a waste of my cash.
its SIMILAR to SAW?
YUCCCCCCCCCCCCCK.
and i spend most of my money..
on drinks. food. and coffee.
OH NO.

english was screwed.
i swear i dint give my best.
there was so much more i could do.
but wtheck. major disappointment.
oh well. shall leave it behind. :(

ANYWAY...

DEAD SILENCE IS EFFIN DISTURBIN!
pls. don go watch it if you cant scream to let
your fear out. cos it'll get all stuck inside you.
and i feel like retching now. wtf. -.-

MET UTT.
whoa~ he is DROP DEAD GORGEOUS.
almost went hysterical. lol.
okayy this is crazyy..
but yah. he's goodlooking what !
plus he's like. goodlooking.
and like.really goodlooking?
then again. mayb..
im better ? HAHAH.

bump into JAVIN.
tht dope, say i stalk him.
but he's a nicenice chap mann.

coincidentally met MARV! (:
longggggtimeeee NO seee.
missed tht pretty boyyyyyyyy...
xDDDDDD

FINALLY.
lol.
met up w my GIRLFRIEND! (:
got her this funny windmill thingy.
and this CHOCS i stood in the store
so longggggggg to chooose!!!
hahah. poor peiwen! had to accompany me.
not bad. helped me choose too.

so many highlights today!
HAHAA. FUN FUN FUN.
but rahhh.
prelims' starting.
time to FOCUS.

oh man.

but wtheck..

had LOADSA FUN today!!

to the USUAL CLIQUE :
i love goddamnit LOVE you guys!! :DDD
more parties to comeee! WHOA LA~
and steph NG. leave my hair outta the MESS
next time okayy!! :DD

to BRIAN THE BIRTHDAY BOY:
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
i swear your HAIR smells fine! HAHAH!

to MY sweetsweet GIRLFRIEND :
DEAREST! happy 5th MONTH! (:
it hasnt really been an easy month
for both of us. but wtheck.
we'll move on. we'll get better.
mug hard for promos kay? (:
i will be DAMN DELIGHTED to show off
my JC 2 girlfrienddd !!! HAHAHA.
i love you!!

alrite man.
thts all ppl. bye byebye~
i needa mug. bigggtime.

2007-08-25T06:58:00.000-09:30

relationship

came across this on a mag.
thought they were food for thought.
so here goes.

Your lover does not owe you your happiness,
peace or joy.

happiness is a state of mind we choose to have.
all of your happiness,suffering, are created
by you and they do not come from outside
of you, or from others. before you get into
any kind of r/s, ask yourself these qns :
" Do i really really know how to walk away
from disappointment and fear? Will i be able
to find the person that i am now even after i go
into this r/s and begin a new way of life?"
In short, you should not be dependnt on your partner
on your emotional needs. You yourself are responsible
for your own feelings and creating positive experiences
for both your partner and you whenever you are together.

Love your partner for w ho they are.

No one's perfect in this world. One day you'll find your
partner doin certain things or saying certain things that
will hurt you, disappoint you or anger you. Before you go
into any type of r/s, ask yourself : " Will i be able to love
my partner for who they are. If i am unhappy or angry
with something they have done or said, will i able to
recognise my unhappiess or anger as against their speech,
actions and behaviour, and not against their persons? "

there you go.
think about it.
before you actually give up on a r/s.
or get into one.

2007-08-24T03:21:00.000-09:30

when you walk,
i count the steps that you take.

when you smile,
i seek to find those light in your eyes.

when you fall,
i'll be that ever-ready cushion below.

when you cry,
& i hear your broken voice.
god kill me,
you deserve better & more.

cos im hangin on every word you say,
and if you dont wanna talk tonight..
its alright, yes its alright.
cos i want nothing more..
than listen to your breathing.

and its not hard to fall.
and i dont wanna lose her.

if you leave,
i'll pursue the ghost of you,
that lingers behind.

2007-08-23T03:39:00.000-09:30

OMFGOOOOSSSHHHHH!!!

O LEVELS ORAL IS FINALLY OVER!!

HOOOOORRAAAYYYYY!!!

right. hahaha.
oral went pretty well.
i enjoyed myself, tremendously.
not too bad.
and im beginnin..
to appreciate indian ladies.

hahahahaha!
school's been the same.
muggin. muggin. muggin.
endless studying.
but wtheck.
shant complain.
for i shall have all the fun i wan..
in 2months' time.

i swear.
i'll play, till my fats drop off.
& you can play w them after tht.
hahaha. haaha.
sorry i sound so HYPE.
cos i AM.. for oral's over.
and i dint screw up.
so YEAH~ there you go.

thanks ZJ & many others
who text or get me stuffs to wish
me goodluck for oral man.
plus the many handshakes before
that!!!!!!! :))))

thts all for the week.
no school 2mr.
YEAHS~ but ss grpwork is on.
ahh. .
oral's over.
time to focus once more.
workhard ppl!

i dont ever wanna,
be here without you.
never never.
no no no no no no.
not at all.

go slow girl.
at times, youre just too fast.
pace down.
i wanna walk beside you.
for a longlong time.

(:

studyhard alrite ?
exams are nearing.
i dont wanna see you crying
over disappointments again.
you'll do fine if you start now.
i promise.
i love you.
i assure you, my heart is w you.
Mughard! :)
Take me MUGGIN w you man!
ha.
iloveyou. -gives stupid grin
ily ily ily... y y y y y y !!

okay.byebye.
call me soon. :)

2007-08-20T02:54:00.000-09:30

you've alwys been priority.
i don't ever wanna be an option.
never.
and you wont ever be one too.

school's been crappy.
jess's a nutcase. major.
brian's bein some dope.
the clique's all tired & delirous at diff times of the day.

oral's on thurs.
drreaaaaad.
im running outta time to study.
shall tail adeline's study timing.
make sure i study as much as her.
mugglikef*rk.
hopefully, some grades will show.

am tired.
so overburdened w fatigue.

geeeees.

okay man. bye ppl.

codliver oil is good for health.
esp when one's exams are comin.
baby biscuit;
is something you've wanted a longtime back.
just got it. sorry it took so long.
kid's apple juice..
are they different from ours? (:
tell me about it. wont you?

i love you dearest.
crazy crazyyyy loads.

SHOUT OUT :
我爱 cheryl gan !

2007-08-18T09:10:00.000-09:30

its 240am in the mornin.
im bored & my baby's aslp.

listening to..
your guardian angel.

haha.
decided to view some oldpics
of me&mydearest.

ended up laughin myself silly.

this is dumb.
but hey.

we're cute okay.
i swear we are.

((:

its cottonfloss squishy-flobbish i feel when im close to you.
and i'll freeze us up. keep it my pocket & carry it everywhere i go.

baby, im losing myself in this timeframe of you. oh Hagarflugenxz.

2007-08-17T19:00:00.001-09:30

its one of those silly petty quarells again.
where everything's shaken and toppling.

so tell me,
im looking for my centre of gravity.
to stable things down.
now where is she?

we both dont deserve shit from eachother.
we both know it. just to stubborn to show it.
and i feel like crap when this happens.

i'd wish we both understood eachother more.

maybe if i work a lil harder,
and you calm down a lil more..
things will get better?

cos if 2mr's the day where i'd awake without you,
then i wanna die in your arms tonight.

cos im still waiting to see,
how we'll end up to be in the coming years.

cos im growing up..
and i wanna grow up,
falling in love with you.

over & over again.

& im sorry, if i wasnt enough.

cos right from the beginning,
my heart is all i have to offer.

& you've taken it.
i dont want it back.

keep it.
remember me.

pick me up.
& we'll try harder.

all over again.

& dearest, this is for you.
i love you.
like always. nono.
even more.

2007-08-16T03:15:00.000-09:30

so i met this girl.
quite recently actually.
lets just say.
she's everything about being physical.

shes the centre of gravity. (CG)
and my gravitational potential energy. (GPE)
terms which ALL physics kids shld be familiar about.

funny though.
she knows nuts bout physics.
other than, light travels in a straight line.
and well, waves travel in all sort of lines..
which is obviously crap.

but see.
she's nice though.
haha.
yesyes.
really physical too. -winks
you know what i mean.

nahhh
not THAT way.

quit it.

right.
but shes cute.
so that's that.

oh yesyes.

so,
im in love.

with this everything but biological girl.

she doesn function the right way.

yesyes.
psycho-logical.
chemical.
PHYSICAL.
comical.
ahhh..
you know.

anything but biological.

doesn eat right.
doesn drink right.

gees.

did i mention tht shes cute?

oh. so i did.

(:

okay. thts all.

bye world.

2007-08-13T03:43:00.000-09:30

for a couple of days now...
the same things kept revolving arnd my head.

hahaha.
and i found out, i've become incapable of studying..
incapable of concentrating.. neither on maths/sci nor humanities.
other than my literature.

so i read.
and every night i read. and i cant stop reading.
over and over again.
seeking the meaning of the story.
the life behind it.

theme of love.
theme of life.
theme of death.
theme of innocence.

how about theme of deceive?
nono.more like,
theme of fate.

wait. how can i forget?
theme of predictability.
theme of unpredictability.
and tht makes more sense.
cos im definitely more familiar w tht.

what a load of craps.

tell me how strong one is able to get..
for his children.
when after 19yrs of givin in & givin all he has
for a family,
the woman he has loved all along,
has repaid his love with scandals&cheaps.
thoroughly destroyin everything he has lived for.

fark.

what kinda of a morbid state can a woman be,
to be hanging out late all night long..
at who knows where.
getting home at who knows what time.

perpertual one-sided love?
oh oh oh.
oh wake up please.

biliousness.
i feel like vomiting. nauseous.
sicked&tired&terrified&confounded.
& very very mystified by all thts happening.

how can one's idiosyncrasy be THT bad/negative.
to stoop soooooooo low.
to act this way.
to be so horrible unthoughtful.
to be so incorrigible.

to be so.. inhuman.

how is tht possible ?

no. it cant be.
HE.
has loved you for 19 hardcore years.
yes. the first few yrs were bad.
but hey,
he has given you everything..
cash. car. house.
& most importantly, his utmost love.

no.
he doesn speak much.
he's a quiet man.
really witty though.
really smart.
brilliant mind, the way it works.
very diligent.
with a simple goal.
and a simple motivation to strive in life.

he has let you have your indulgence
in every single possible way.
and not mutter a word.
no anguish.
no grumbles.
no jealousy.

jus plain .pain. hurt. weariness. disappointment.
time and time again.

how much does it take a man,
to come down so low.
to ask you to stay over&over again..
in a timespan of 19yrs,
pamper you w gifts and jewelleries.
more trust and more love.
and even more love love love love.
yet still have his goddamn love refuted.
thrown right back into his face.
tearing him down.

NO.
but he doesn show it.

and what did he do after tht ?
he gave you 10 damn words.

" i.. wish you the best. from the bottom of my heart. "

so right till the last point,
he's still thinkin of you. caring so much about you.

and what did you do tonite?
you drove off.
in your posh white car .
he paid for.
from the house tht kept you sheltered.
he paid for.
from the kids you've gave life to.
he provided for them.
from the nest that's sppse to be warm..
yet its torn, falling, and breaking apart.
he's keeping them together.

and so are we.

i hope you understand.
cos we dont.
we're tryin to come to terms w things though.
and we will.
so dont you worry.

and daddy, be strong.
for you, i'll be strong too.
we all will. you'll see.

labels: an unspoken letter, i opened by chance. and for once, looked into the heart..
of a man i've known for life. but has never really understood before.
and for once, my heart broke. for this man, i know i'll love. eternally.

2007-08-09T22:00:00.000-09:30

X COUNTRY DAY!

LOL. we look like twins from the back ? o.O
we dunked down h20 like they're cans of beeer.

lovebirds. awww. cuteeeeeeeeee right?
i swear she has this fetish for barks.
both dog barks and tree barks.
loyaltyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy... i am i am a part of a loyal tee!
brian & his new found flame. gggggggggeeeeeeeeeeeeees.

too shagged. im there. on the left of steph's tummie.
pretttttttty prettttttttttty bright light.
when you look back and realise ur fans' tracing ur footsteps! hahah!
faints- EYECANDY!!!!!!!!! <333!

freakin niceeeeeeeeeeee hairrrrrrrrrrr car has. D:

lol. yeahs. we look back with lax & nature.

our walking icon.
be a bugs for once.
BOB THE BUILDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!
pic w my idol. mr bob.

our all time favourite- MR SOON! :DDDDDDD

girlfriend.. girlfriend!
this is my boyfriend, shes freakin tall. and i like her. (:
ly again.
intimacy. kill me please.

yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyeahs mr BRA. we're cool.

my best EX CONVICT. (:
awwwwwwwww. KWAN & carrrRRrr!! (:
girlfriend w theee Emperor
(: you comment, i shall kp dumb.
lovelovelove!

alright. thts all. (((: enjoy. this is will stay for longgggggggg ! (:

2007-08-08T23:43:00.000-09:30

preps for x country. lol. silly narcissitism.
& i adore redpaint& my boyfriend.

more will come soon. (((:

people of Loyalty. im proud..

to be part of you guys.

2007-08-08T04:16:00.000-09:30

x country's all about

- a burnt Arsehole
- a Red head
- 10 thousand miles walk
- camwhoring our day thru
- gaying the entire morning
- eatin our guts out @ the hawker

dint turned out s well s expected though.
but the photos. .. Ahh~
they're SEXXXXXXAYE. (:

will put them up soon.
but not today. am diarrhoea-ing since mornin.
omy. im gna sue the darn school's cai fan stall.
and fried noodles & angel can be bear witness
to their poison-filled food too. GRAHhh.
those bitches there. swear they're out to kill me.

i miss my girlfriend
tremendous-much.
:(((((((((((((((((((
though i whine and i cry
and i laugh it through.
but wtheck.
you know i still am, inlove w you.

smiley..
tempted to get my smiley.
girlfriend, youre makin my web
itch like crazy~
roar.
and colleen! rofl. if i get a smiley,
you go split ur tongue okay.
waRAoahahahaha.
so if we get caught in school,
we serve dC together! :D

dearest,
you'll be alright.
you know you can do it.
everyone knows you can.
youre gonna make it.
i believe in that.
and you better live in tht
mentality that you can too.
as usual,
you know where you went wrong.
and it isnt too late to go right again.
i love you.
and i'll follow you through.
baby, youre not alone. (:

bye world.
will be back w photos soon.

2007-08-05T02:26:00.000-09:30

when you learn tht taking the
easiest way out
isnt the answer to the problem,
you do the next best thing-

compromise.

life's been great so far.
other than the falling sick part.
GROANS-
how horribly pathetic.
headed out w the bunch of clique
on saturday.
skipped mr song, dropping rV.
bought many shirts for the class.
well, they did most of the job.
i just slept. slept. slept.
and thts all i do. rofl.

am tired.
nth much to say.
OHOH.
yesyes. almost forgot.
i finally know wads OXY10
and how to use it. -.-
omy- dope. xD

ilovemy girlfriend ;)
like fark.
tht awfully sexaye thang.
grins-

lovelove ppl.
bye world.

2007-08-02T02:35:00.000-09:30

came home after stayin in school till 12plus.
dope fever and aches. thanks man. wtf.
dad was too bz. ( he always is )
mom's asleep. so they cant pick me up.
so i cabbed home from school.pathetic.
okay. im nt sppse to whine .
i was NEVER sppse to whine all this years.
this has always the way we live, my family.
but wtheck.
it isnt helping when care's given, yet the concern
taken away.
tell me. what are parents for ?
shelter ? money ? two robots tht everyone has,
so therefore i have to have a pair too?

head home.
had porridge w pork floss.
slept.
woke up.
had rice with soup and pork floss.
sorry. i refuse eat anything..
but something w pork floss.

dearest. i miss you. terribly.
so where're you?
when i really need you.
at times, it seems like you care.
then again. it seems like you dont.
and i feel like bawling out to you.
cos i feel so much like a lost child now.
i want nthng then to hide in you.
becos the rest, they dont care.
they dont know. they dont bother.
so where're you? :'(

i feel like some thrown out kid.
quite pathetic actually.
but really, who knows?

if you think its fun being rich.
and nothing else.
well, youre darn wrong.
cos all the money in the world,
aint gonna buy me
what i want & need most.

and it takes alot.
to get through all these times.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEHCHEH!
YOURE 18 THIS YEAR.
AND IM GLAD YOURE HAPPY.
FOR UR DEAR BOY SEEMS TO HAVE
GIVEN YOU SO MUCH JOY. ;))))))
I LOVE YOU.
HAPPY HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!

2007-08-01T02:52:00.000-09:30

YESTERDAY.

dinner @ temple was crap.
head was throbbing so badly esp w the loud speakers.
went outside to the field to watch tonk tonk qiang
instead.
shagged shagged shagged.
headed home in a maxi cab at 11plus?
fever came, as expected. head to bed after shower.
SLAM!
woke up only at 13o in the afternoon today.
groans-
mom dragged me to the doc after lunch.
got an MC and 3types of medication.
fever. cough. inflammation.
bimbo came over. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
thts the highlight of the day.
hahahahahahahaaahahahahaa.
right. ahem* okay.
headed to gardens after cabbin her home and got latte~
serious craving.
so now....................
GEOGRAPHY. HERE I COMEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! ..
i shall conquer you.
despite the fact i know head nor tail about you.
but i shall.
and you shall fall inlove w me as i fall inlove
with you. CLEAR ?

DOPE.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA!
I LOVE YOU TABLEMATE & CRACKPOT PARTNER!
BUT I STILL THINK UR JACKET 'S EEYORE-LIKE!
AND YOU LOOK LIKE EEYORE WHEN YOU WEAR IT!
BUT I LOVE YOU STILL! :DDD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESTELLE!!!!
I LOVE YOU TOO. COS YOU LOOK LIKE TIGGER!
AND TIGGER LOOKS BETTER THAN EEYORE!
I SWEAR! :DDDDDDDDDD

2007-07-30T02:37:00.000-09:30

i miss you.

like you, i dont wanna live w/o you.
like you, im very much inlove w you.
like you, i get crazy and cranky.
like you, i am stubborn and idiotic.
like you, i hope tht you'll understand me.
like you, i hope tht you'll keep in mind tht
i do i do i do still love you when things get nasty.
like you, i am sorry. for all these thts happening.
like you, i think its stupid to quarrell like this.
like you, i find it hard to get by a day w/o you.
like you, im lost when i haven got you.
like you, i hope we'll be better and fine soon.
like you, i hope things will turn out well.
like you, i wana lie and cry into your shirt when
im down, out and feeling miserable.
like you, i hope you'll be the one whose there whenever
im all messed & screwed up.

like you, i cant afford to lose you.

CherylGan,
i swear, i love you.

when nothing's right nor wrong.

2007-07-28T05:03:00.000-09:30

PIMPLE OUTBREAK.

went into a frenzy yesterday at watson tryin
to find some fast aid pimple saving shit.
geees. jurongpoint 's jus so freakin biggggg.

went hm when no one's hme yesterday.
the door's lock. and im key-less.
best. climbed in through the 2nd lvl window.
knocked into the dumb aircon thingy outside.
HUGE bruise on my leg. its bigger than a
50cents coin. i sppse its 2 50cents put together?
oww owww owww. :(((((

and the best thing is.
mom unknowingly told me hrs after tht tht
she forgot to lock the car park door. omg.
i could just die there. -.- while my two idiotic
sisters laugh their head off.

headed to school for amaths consultation
earlier today. am in NO MOOD to joke or laugh.
bloody cramps. ( literally bloody )
freakin weather.
mom got into a naggin spree the moment i reached hme.
couldn stop scoldin ( yes, scoldin. she level up from jus
plain naggin ) me. how great.

headed to taka with my sibs&mom.
had lunch at coffee club.
hung out with my long-lost mates after tht.
GEEES.
four BEAR. i sure do miss you. and you crap
freakin much. -.- dirty mind & a effin cool tattoo.
AWWWWWWWWWW.
claire, shuyun, xd and colleen was there too.
and colleen. ENVY. wtheck. ur EAR PIECE.
i wanna upgrate my MP3 too luhhh.

sat at the cafe next to esteler at cine talking
the night through. FINALLY. catchin up
on eachother's life! :DDDDDDDDDDD
reminiscing. roarrrrrrrrrrr.

thts about all folks.
save me ppl. i got major pimple outbreak.
and im dying! :( freak it.
so where is my girlfriend now anyway? :((
wtheck.

oh yeahs. this is LOYALTY.

hahaha. i love love love love EEEELLL OOOOOO VEEEE EEE them!! :D

2007-07-27T06:10:00.000-09:30

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that...

im tired tired tired... :(
geography is freakin easy and i haven got enuf time
to finish it. wtheck.
amaths was pathetic. pathetic. pathetic.
shrugs.
i shld just drop amaths.
wtheckkkkkkkkkkk.

walked arnd jP today. had a cuppa.
latte latte latte my lovee~~~~~~ finally!
been craving for some decent coffee. gees.

career seminar was kinda screwed.
nth much reallly.
i wanna catch the simpsons. anyone? :D

im tired tired tired.............. :(

im goin to bed soon.
jess is a crackpot. im not. rofl.
losing my voice.
oh no. oh no. oh no.
im bored. so i shant blog no more.
bye world~

Happy 4months baby! :DDD
and i hope youre feelin better now.
yeahhs.
tekaire 2morrow man.
have a great time. loves&misses! <33

2007-07-25T02:46:00.000-09:30

yesterday was LOONEY.
for i was feelin LOONEY yesterday.

Jess 's was kinda driven nuts by me in class.
i swear her bluish jacket look like eeyore's skin.
she wears tht. and she look like this gargantuan
version of an EEYORE. :D

chinese compo test was ridiculous.
NO, seriously. it was. MAJORLY hilarious.
ask steph. she couldn stop herself being choked
with pangs of laughing gas attacks. GEES.
swear. she got me infected too. :DDDDDDDDDD
aww.girlfriend.youre
ONE BIG MENTAL CASE!
dnno wth you laughin about also.

skipped school today.
studied at bK macs. waited for bimbo till 11?
soooooooo bored. sooooooooooooo cold.
i almost died there. -.-
attempted to do my emaths.
guess what.
awwwwwwwwwww. so smart.
yah. i dint know how to do.
ended up reading 1 mag. 2 sets of newspaper
and drawing caricature of ppl i see in Macs.

headed to ps.
got tickets for the potter muvee which started
10 mins after we arrived. rofl.
theatre was EMPTY except for a couple of us.
kinda nice really.
sitting there, snuggling against the NOT-SO-
NICE-SMELLING seats and having her asking
me to shuddup every few mins. rofl.
it was really cold though.
and HEY! bimbo look really adorable in my jumper
with the hood over her head. GRINS-
awwwwww. rofl!

dint really get the movie. (WHOSE FAULT?!)
think im gnna catch it again with some other peeps.
WHOSEE FREEEEE?!
DATE ME. DATE ME! and remind me to bring cam.
OMG. EMMA WATSON is
DROP DEAD GORGEOUS.
ahem* right. xDDDDDDD

wenna view guitars&keyboards at yamaha after tht.
ZONGYE! WHERE IS MY GUITAR!!!!!!!!!!!
ITS BEEN 3MONTHS ... YOU DOPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HURRRRRRY RETURN ME. :)))))))
and i wan my accoustic.
either a red one. OR a black one.
freak. mom's been dragging it. but wtheck, im waiting
for the next warehouse sale to come up.
hopefully before my prelim papers start.
guitars help to destress you know? :)))))))

AYE. returned home.
SLEPT. yes. tilll NOWWWWWWWWWWWW.
gonna re type my resume later. x((

hello big boronic moron.
:))))))))))))))))))

2007-07-23T03:21:00.000-09:30

today.

potter craze everywhere.
doesn exclude me. rofl. im part of the
fad. totally obsessed with the damn book.
awwwww.
some SPOILERS just so irritating. -.-

left sch @ 12.15pm today.
caught the c div semi finals for zonals.
fark Ahs. they deserve to die.
hell with the referees.
fine if youre blind and ignore the facts.
but messin arnd with the timing and
shortenin it at the most crucial moment
while the entire court jeer at you?
well. two words.
F*rk YOU.

freakin pissed w the ppl there.
but wthell.
wenna find my bimbo after match.
tht poor girl's drained.
ahh well. :(

dear girl.
pls be fine.
yr daddy meant well okay?
:((
don be upset no more.
i love you.

OH. and to ppl.
who actually think my blog's
cheesy. or whatsoever.
go fark yourselves too.
its either youre SINGLE,
and are jealous of me.
OR youre ATTACHED yet doesn
seem to like to talk much bout your
lover, bcos u think its stupid. so be it.
leave me, my blog, my ways and your
silly critism outta my league.
get. a. life.
anything more bout my girlfriend.
or whatsoever.
i'll turn nasty.
clear ?
bitch off.

lastly. i love my class of NUTS.

http://madeofballoons.livejournal.com/12034.html

those chicks and THE BAND. :)))
love you crazy geeks. MELTS.

2007-07-21T23:36:00.000-09:30

hilarious day.

topped up my ez link at the train station.
run outta short change. headed to the control station.
lol.
uncle went,
"how much, girl? no. boy. hey.. nono. girl. sorry!"
and gave me a freakin goofy smile. geees.
FAINTS-

wenna breadtalk to satisfy my MILO CRAVE.
cashier. " tht'll be $1.50 sir. "
stands up and FAINTS again-

HAHA.
madness. see, thts what you get for lookin
so androgynous.. xD but WTHECK.
IM USED TO IT. -GRINS.

tuition tuition tuition.
did 2hrs plus of amaths.
integration.
i wished i'll be able to integrate
my brain size. capacity. width.
the amt of juices. memory space... blahblaH!

iNEED more MEMORY space.
-looks up and pray.
*oh god. turn my brain into a THUMBDRIVE!*
rofl. rofl. rofl.

right.
derivation of the word " SLP" .
SLP- is the initials of my fULLNAME.
SLP - Sng Li Peng. (sng liping luhh)
IF.
you say my full name really quickly.
and repeatedly.
it'll go something like...
" sleeping sleeping sleeping.. "
so there you go.
im nailed "SLP" on top of my head.

right. im bored.
nthng much to blog about too.
i miss my girlfriend.
she's viewin houses. -.-
she shld come view mine luhh!
serious crave for latte too.
grahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

hello love,
hows your day? (:
i miss you.

2007-07-21T01:04:00.000-09:30

woke up at 8plus in the mornin.
headed to the 7/11 outside school for branch ?
wenna school. did maths for 2hrs or so.
headed to tp. then home!
TRIMMED MY HAIR.
rofl. okay. i look like BOTAK MONKEY now!!

HAHAH.
i swear xiaxue's blog is the MOST ENTERTAININ
blog i've seen so far. esp the post on disgustin ppl.
oh my oh my oh my. just stab me pls.
im gettin stitches from laughin too much. XDDD
ROFL.

RIGHT. chem later. im bored bored bored.
x((( been stucked at home.
ohhh wellll. shall do revision. ((:
BYE WORLD.

2007-07-19T03:32:00.000-09:30

teachers teachers teachers.

sometimes, you guys can be the biggest morons ever.
you know?
i mean, sure. nag. nag. nag. wtheck.
but do you have to nag about the SAME THING
over and over again, EVERY SINGLE DAY? wtBLACK.
this is so annoying. and its gettin on my nerves.
freakkit. how can?
sighhhh.

teachers teachers teachers.
pls try to understand that we do listen.
once or twice is enough. alright?
please teachers. relax.
if you tense up. we tense up too.
dont ever think we're not studyin.
cos we are. so hey. CHILL it kay.

,
i realised.
i haven been spendin enough time w my
girlfriend lately. grr.
to my dearest,
im absolutely sorry alrite? sch's been crazy.
a total bitch at that. its killin me.
i miss you, terribly much.
and you nv fail to make me feel better
each time im cranky. thanks, a deal. ^^
im glad we had that really long talk the other
night. guess we kinda clear things up and all?
now we know wads impt and wads not.
well to me, im just more than delighted to
have you around. ((:
i've been in a cranky mood lately.
well, its the workload and all.
but still~ youre not forgotten kay?
i love you (:

2007-07-18T04:49:00.000-09:30

for one more day.

----------------------------

Times i did not stand up for My Mother

she has found my cigarettes. they are in my sock drawer.
I am fourteen years old.

"its my room!" i yell.

"Charley! We talked about this! I told you not to smoke! it's
the worst thing you can do! What's the matter with you?"

"You're a hypocrite!"

She stops. Her neck stiffens. "Dont you use that word."

"You smoke! You're a hypocrite!"

"Dont you use that word!"

"Why not, Mom? You always want me to use big words in a sentence.
There's a sentence. You smok.e I can't. My mother is a hypocrite!"

I am moving as i yell this, and the moving seems to give me strength,
confidence, as if she can't hit me. This is after she has taken a job
at the beauty parlor, and instead of her nursing whites, she wears
fashionable clothes to work - like the pedal pushers and turquoise blouse
she is wearing now. These clothes show off her figure. i hate them.

"I am taking these away," she yells, grabbing the cigarettes.
"And you are not going out, mister!"

"I don't care!" i glared at her. "And why do you have to dress like
that? You make me sick!"

"I what?" Now she is on me, slapping my face. " I WHAT?
i make you" -slap!-"sick?" I make " -slap!- "you SICK?"-
slap!- "Is that what you"-slap!-"said?" -slap,slap!- "Is it?
Is that what you THINK OF ME?"

"No! No!" I yell. "Stop it!"

I cover my head and duck away. I run down the stairs and out the
garage. I stay away until well past dark. When I finally come home,
her bedroom door is closed and i think i hear her crying. I go to
my room. The cigarettes are still there. I light one up and start crying
myself.

--------------------------------

so tell me ppl,
how much do you know about your mom?

2007-07-17T03:37:00.000-09:30

week dint started off tht well.
for one, my goddamn fone got confiscated by this HOHOHO
fark-up farmer who shld knows better than to
cross me. big biarch. she better watch her back man.
who knows, i might burn down her entire agriculture.
and farkher, hope her husband finds her head too
mushroom-like, chop it off and steamboat/bbq it for supper.
biaaaaaaaaaaarccccccccccccch.
(never, ever ever ever.. make me detest you. cos i'll scribble your f*rkin name all over every piece of white space i can find. )

okay.i feel better now.
so anyway, gotten my prelim schedule.
best. start on the 27th. & debrief ends on the 27th the followin
month. whoo~
once more. 3papers on the day with lit. shrugs.
tired tired tired.
absolutely.
everyone's tired. every single one. all tired tired tired.
well..
cant blame though.
darn school load. should've started long ago.
(yes im regretting. )
roar. right. im too tired to blog.

i miss my girlfriend. loads.
like loads loads loads loads. cos bein w her makes me
feel a great deal better.
(eventhough shes very NUA.. ) -.-
but yeahs.
ily* dearest ((:

right. lastly.
big thanks to
ANGELINA HUANG.!!!!
rofl. thanks lil girl. thanks for your two spare fones!
hahahaha. :DDD ahh well.
i owe you BIGBIGBIG time. no wrries.
will give you ur treats back in due time.
alrite ? :D thanks again!!!

k. im off. tired tired.`

all small talks.

2007-07-14T01:10:00.000-09:30

PEOPLE. SEES. ME.
BUT WHO CARES, REALLY.

small talks.
cheap thrills.
deep sensations.
constant longing.
kinky~?
nono.
tantalising.
exhilariating.
tempting.
addictive.
satisfying to the max.
just like.
you. to me.

been studyin kinda alot lately.
have no idea why too. guess im Desperate.
Desperate to do well. very very desperate.
well, i guess how much effort you're willing
to put in. all rounds up to HOW BADLY
you want it. * and i wanna do well, BADLY.

school's been tearin up the flesh behind myback.
bein a constant irritant tht scratches and claws
at the back of my head to remind me just how much
work i have, how much work i needa do, how close
the Olvls are. geees. go f*rk yourself you crazy monkey.
gimme a break. or i'll use a cleaver to crack your null
skull. dope.

been havin silly short quarrells w my girlfriend this
week. short, intense ones. just like some
cold frontal rain.
still, tht doesn diminish the
amt of love i have for her.
in fact, i still like her alot.
that lovely spoilt* girl
actually queued for two odd hours to
get some 6 donuts for me.
thanks dearest, i've been craving
for them for quite awhile now.
its funny how im always near donuts but
am unwilling to get some for myself.
Alas, guess who
knows me best ? (:
gees. figured tht im gonna be stucked
on her for quite awhile.
(winks-)

*spoilt - verylazy. verywhiny. veryidiotic. veryANTIbuses.( okay, slap me. )

cliche.
cliche.
cliche.

and baby im just lucky.
cos its hard to believe.
tht somebody like you,
ended up with someone,
like me.

OH HELLO

i looked up, glanced at the street lamp
and mumbered a silent prayer,
" thank you light.
thank you so much. "

on any other nights, i would have grumbled and threw
a fuss about the lousy quality of the light, for im
never careful enough to keep my steps in check.

but no, not tonight. im grateful for the darkness clovering
around us, with minimal light just bright enough of
two lovesick people to see what they've been aching to see
after a long separate yet dark enough to keep the
sight of others away from us.

" yes, thank you light. "

the gentle stream of light spread itself comfortably over her,
embedding itself around her, outlining her neatly sharpened face,
her sweetly puffed up cheeks tht sticks out ever so ..

...hmm. so rightly.

xD
HAHAHAHA.
sorry. i know im very annoying for being anti climax.
but wtheck. :D
shrugs. shall write again soon ?
just feel like throwing in a para for im longinlonginlongin
for my girlfriend,

like a child craving for a lolly & strawberry icecream topped w
whipped cream & icings plus a large floating CAREBEAR balloon, bright and striking, tied to his pinky , with an extending white thread tht allow the big fat balloon to fly & blob unsteadily against the wind high UP THERE in midair.
see the sweetness and the temptation of it all?
wtheck.
kill me please someone.
just take mashmellows and stuff up my mouth so that i'll stop complaining.
or throw tofu at me to kill me.
or just kidnap my girlfriend and bring her to me at this VERY MOMENT!

SNAP BACK!

imagine his disappointment when his mom dragged him
on with NO! thought of gettin anything FOR him.
NOT even a lolly.
tsk. what a turn off. what a wet blanket.

SEE. thts how im
feeling now. cos imissmygirlfriend. so im whining&complainin
&grumbling&screaming my head off into my pillow.

RAHHH!
and i cant see her :((((
why
why
why
why
why
why
why
why
why... . WHY?!
how unfair is this?
i hate being a kid. tsk.
i mean. at this moment.
i hate being a kid. feeling like a kid.
zomg.

parents these days.
-SHAKE MY HEAD.

okay. i shall stop here. (:
shall attempt to write a story on my girlfriend really soon.

ah HUH.
cos its CHEMISTRY* baby.

*chemistry - a subject i have a mixed love/hate feelin for.
- this special thing between you & me.
- especially in bed.
- hahaha. look here. look here.
-catch me interesting other factor.
-focus & read on. its gettin to the climax.
-SMACK YOUR HEADS
- dont be stupid readers. im joking.
- busybodies.
- go study. or i'll get my imaginery monkey to claw at you too.

strike one

2007-07-13T03:02:00.000-09:30

you have to really check this out man! :D

http://youtube.com/watch?v=R2kZiaCea_o&mode=related&search=

and

http://youtube.com/watch?v=U4KUZJAvj98&mode=related&search=

hahahaha. and last one last one.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=4xCwuBjTq04&mode=related&search=

right. so lets talk about today.
today is SLACK DAY. cos i slacked like f*rk.
roar. probably bcos i went bonkers the night before.
became cranky today mornin and slept durin geography.

gees.
spent time w my bimbo today.
tht idiot. -.-
WHO STARTED IT FIRST MAN?! tsk.
eheheh. watch where your hands are goin kay!
:D :D :D
so anyway, that sweetie pie bought doughnuts for me
from DOUGHNUT FACTORY } raffles city.
wonder how long she queued for it mann.
and what scandalous stuff shes been doin
with one of her mutiple scandal by the name of sharlyn -.-
hahaha. fond memories of me,girlfriend&tracia.
but anyway,
THANK YOU LOVE.
YOURE LIKE THE ULTIMATE NICE THANG.
AWWWWWWWWWWW.
I LOVE YOU.
hahaha. ( bet whoever thts addin you online does too. hmph)
but i love you MORE. clearr ?
but yeahs,
exploring & touring gardens was fun.

i bet the cabbie had fun too man!
hahhahahahhhahaha.

right. weekend = studyin craze
say. amaths. chem. physics and history!
yeahs. shall complete these few!

im tired. tired. tired.
i wanna watch harry potter.
but im not goin to. ( i guess )
time constraints.
ROAR.

k, im OFF.
and BRIAN NG. s tart s tudyin !

`when one strike's all youve got.

2007-07-12T04:59:00.000-09:30

so its 1o.29pm now.
lets say review my entire day.

say.
i woke up late @ 620.
rushed & cabbed to school.
(thts a norm, cab's my life)

amaths. english. emaths.
physics. social studies. chem.
school ends.
geography mcq practice till 430pm.

old airport rd w the usual cronies.
yes, we're a naughty lot.
home. integration. fell aslp on the table.

bathed. choc milk. differentiation.
here now. integration later.

guess whats for 2mrrow?

-amaths quiz
-amaths test
-geography test

see. i like school. alot.

and so she said,
" cause of YOU ive laughed a lil harder,
cried a lil less ( this is nonsense. i make ppl cry
me a river a couple of times, aww. ): ), smiled a lot
for no special reason ( nthing to do wiv me.
shes idiotic & moronic! haha ).
cause of YOU my world's a much
happier place. :) i love you!"

so i smiled. heart flew & fluttered.
skipped a beat and melted. ((:
see. now you know why she's the..
sweetest thing alive.

and for the millionth time,
i thank god. ( yes god.which ever god you are.
i, thank.. you. from the bottom of my heart )

prelims oral

2007-07-11T06:37:00.000-09:30

hello ALL. hahah. yes im back.
the week's been hectic so far, and it WILL continue bein hectic.
had prelim ORAL today.
and EH. the SMART-LOOKIN TWIN is freakin cute and nice kay.
he wears retainer. and he cant pronounce properly.
BUT!
he said " very good, lipeng. i wish the other students were like you. "
and he said " okay. well done well done. relax. don worry. youre already
doing very well. " BEAM-
well, passage and picture was a breeze.
but hey, the rest of the class did well for both of them too? :D
well. its the conversation luhhh. luhh. luhh. GRR.
damn, the conversation caught me off guard. ):
time to work on conversation, SERIOUSLY.

anyway, bimbo had her A lvls chinese oral.
hope she did well man. according to her, the teachers
found it really amusing to see her narrate and express
herself. :D haha. cant blame though.
i swear shes the cutest thing alive. AWWwww.
(like wtheck? who the hell sticks their tongue out when they
get stuck halfway through a conversation? xD )

did amaths, english and A TWEENY BIT of geo jus now.
REALLY TIRED NOW.
shall finish blogging and go to bed.
YAWNS. YAWNS. YAWNS.

tht reminds me.
SINYI told me something real funny today.
" i dreamt that i had a pet giraffe yesterday night, and i rode the giraffe
to school! " HAHAHHAA. i dnno why its funny.
but it tickled me like CRAZY.

my blanket has been attemping to swallow me up whole
these mornings such tht i couldn leave the bed in time and end up being late
for the bus ride to school. GEES.

ALRITE.
prelim orals' over.
WHATS NEXT ?

hello dearest. (:
im sorry i've been busy these nights.
and i know i'll continue being busy for the next couple
of months or so.
don worrie though. there'll ALWAYS be time for you.
i'll manage. i mean. duhh. den leave you alone meh?
of cos not. -roll my eyes.
hahahaaha. alrite alrite. just kiddin. (:
i WONT leave you alone luhh silly dope!
but hey,
im really awfully glad that youre here all these while,
being with me when im stressed & down.
i think youre the sweetest idiot alive.
i dnno why. mayb cos youre cutely idiotic or
idiotically cute or both ? haha. okay. mayb
youre just moronic ? xD
alrite alrite. youre an eyecandy.
the ppl at tpy will agree with me okay!
but wtheck. i love you.
thanks, for being ever so understanding. ((:

2007-07-09T04:48:00.000-09:30

Breathe ( 2 Am)

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,I don't love him.
Winter just wasn't my season"

Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track,
we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands

And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."

Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,

And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to

And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now

Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe

i'd wish you knew.
that no matter how big of a crowd's out there and arnd.
all i could see & think of ..
is you.

2007-07-08T02:26:00.000-09:30

i SO feel like slapping JESSICAWONG.
wenna view justin's blog. saw his tag.. tht goes.

JESS: now, we have mushroom (peiwen), lemon (you) and pineapple (lipeng) in our class.

WTHELL. JESSWONG.
YOU WAIT. AFTER YOU CUT UR HAIR.
I'LL LAUGH THE LOUDEST. :D

anyway, cV ahhh cV why wont you go away?
i have no wish to touch you at all you know?

so anyway, had tuition today. golly.
integration,... you take my breath away. D:
i think maths shld have never been invented man. wthell.
we shld all trade with the amt of hair we have.
this way. no one will go broke. and trading
bcomes entertaining. WHY? bcos different hair type
will be worth different values.
say, curly hair will worth like much more than straight hair.
( hahaha. yixiang wil be effin rich pls ! )
and colour hair may mean different currency of diff countries? yeahs. sounds pretty neat aye? GEES.

imboredboredbored. x( the comin week is effin tiring and tedious.
and i miss my girlfriend. like alot. geeeeeeeeeeeeees. how man?

2007-07-07T05:28:00.001-09:30

SHOUT OUT : I MISS MY GIRLFRIEND!

hello all. back with some pictures taken at drama night. and the pic of my dearest mother and her grp of monkeys. hahahaha!!
there you go! :DD

this is my dear. no, i know you cant see her face. but you will. soon, wait wait. haahha.
there you go. lol. golly. she has got so many gifts. and i dont? wtheck. uhh well. and guess what i got ?
oh how smart. i got to hold ALL HER GIFTS for HER? thanks huh dear? but nehmind. im nice nicenice nicenicenicenice effin effin nicenice. and hell. ( SIMIN. can you stop snappin pics of me!)

and there you go! my fav grp of stmargs girls. :DDD hahaha. okay. ignore the uniform. YUCKS. but hey, they're nice okay. esp my MOTHER. hahaa. (hello ms simin, whens the next chem lesson huh ? you wanna fail your chem huh?!??!?! ) and lastly, my biggest bud. :DDD 3 cheers for CHENWANXIN! haha. bet shes gonna fume when she sees this. but wtheck. :D zai rite? (: (thanks luhh bro, i know you'll always be there. and i haven forget how much similarities we have in common and how we learn to be frens! HAHAH!)

alright. so much for pictures. im really really slpy. D: tuition in the mornin 2mr. hahaha. freakin shagged. ahh well. and wtheck. bimbo, why aint you home yet? im gonna die of ****-sickness. darn. i shall go drown myself in the world of neopets man! and try to heck my lil sister or something. so NO life. and mr justinwong! HAHAHA. i like your JARHEAD! :DDDD you really CAUGHT MY ATTENTION TODAY! zomg. :DD okay luhh. now we can both grow hair together. rofl!

2007-07-06T18:31:00.000-09:30

its ironic.
how you always hurt the one you love most.
hahaha. ( bitterly )
and it just kps happening and happening.
over and over again.
worse still,
you cant stop it. and its not going away.
AND.
the one who loves you.
seems to do what you always do too.
gees.
this is call.. karma.
indeed.
what goes arnd comes arnd.
im sick of all these.
we both are.
im strained these nights.
but you werent there.
busy with other stuffs?
yeahs i know you are. of cos i do.
you probably had alot stuff to handle too.
so sleep bcame my only runaway pathway.
mayb thts why i've been slpin so much,
at home. in school. on the bus.
im sick of quarrells.
im sick of short sms replies.
im sick of the nonchalent air tht hangs arnd
whenever we quarrell.
its like we barely said much to eachother
these 3nights?
i dnno what to do anymore.
nor have i any idea what to say?
whatever i've compromise and gave way
just doesnt seem to work on you.
tell me sweetheart.
wth is this all about?

cos im worried.
cos im scared.
cos im fearful.
cos im. insecure.

2007-07-06T04:54:00.000-09:30

HAHAHAHAHA.
today is a RETARDED day. trust me. IT IS.
you can reconfirm this with JESSTHEPEST! who laughed like
some crackpot beside me today.

slept through the entire physics.
told jess to tell mrang im havin cramps. (im not, im just slpy)
and slept like a log thru the entire physics!
woke up.
mrs lim came in. OHshit. my CV. damnit. okay.
i just remembered. hahaha. i needa print my CV again
cos my mrslim misplaced it. x(
so yeahs. english was kinda crappy.

worse still, geo was a PURE LAUGHIN SESSION.
thanks to Mr.BRA 's bimbotic actions and my attempt
to follow too. OHOH. and the way i teach ppl how to
seduce guys in 3 EASY STEPs. ( ROFL! yes jess, laugh)
and misslai did this super hilarious action
by putting both hands up with palms open by the sides of
each her ears and went.. " I CANT HEAR YOU ! " directed
across the class to teoshinn right at the back. wlao!
so GAYY please. -.- its DEAD funny luhh.

mrjustinwong's hair got cut.
bloodyhell.justin, just go shave it pls. -.-
shave then handsome le luhhh. .
wads with the sudden craze with tamas anyway?!

headed to mediacorp today with car,girlfriend,peiwen
to collect car's prize of ONE CD with only ONE SONG
inside it. -.- ZOMG. hahahhaa. she's nuts HENG luhh.
can win. the one who wrote about fishballs one also luhh!
shes HENGEST luhh. can win?! wtheck? rofl. its real funny
when car told me about me. what.. eat fishballs under the umbrella.
and tht reminds me.
ALLA ALLA A A A UNDER MY UMBRELLA!!!
rofl. sorry. i cant resist the temptation to do it.

anyway, thts about all for today.
im about to start studyin like nuts.
i hope i do luhh. have got an average of
one week per subject to prepare for the prelims.

and dearest, im sorry okay.
shrugs. i dnno man. just tht sometimes, it seems like
you don really bother. i know im being sensitive
and all. but wtheck. i miss you crazy :((
i wish you'd understand but forget it,
i don wanna talk bout this anymore.
im tired. tired. tired. tired.
strained. strained. strained.
but im just glad you had fun today.

2007-07-05T05:16:00.000-09:30

maybe one day,
you'll see why im feelin this way.

stones taught me to fly
love, it taught me to lie
life, it taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannon..
stones taught me to fly
and love taught me to cry
so come on courage
teach me to be shy
cause it's not hard to fall
and i don't wanna scare her
it's not hard to fall
and i don't wanna lose
it's not hard to grow
when you know that you just don't know

`come,fly with me, just fly with me.

2007-07-05T00:33:00.000-09:30

rofl. because of you.
imma study frkin hard. and get you off my neck.
nor give you any chances to have a go at me.
i know what i want. and need.
so yeahs, be nice. stay away.

oh mrjustin. let's mug geo tonite man.
tonnes to do. but wait, i needa slp first! :D

dearest dearest! someone's checkin up on us.
tsk. lets not let the person get the better of us.
hahaaahhhaa. :DDDD iloveyou sweets.

roses!

2007-07-03T04:40:00.001-09:30

this is so effin hilarious.
okay. this is the higher degree of hilaritity.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=In5uec02E8U

enjoy enjoy enjoy. ((:

oh btw, school was crazy. this is sick. im sick of studyin.
so conclusion: mr yazeed might throw me into the drain
because i cant do histroy for nuts. wth is wrong w maozedong?!
cant he just mind his own business and stop being a frker.
i swear i'll cut his balls and hang them outside the entrance
of the o lvl examination hall if he was still alive. that hairy ass.

ohohoh. big short red roses are the SEX.
and justinwong. i swear we're MORONS. zomg.
hell, you better not ps me 2mr nite or i'll slap the f outta you!
long live hitler! :D long live stalin! long live yamashita!
longlonglonglong dead MAO MAO MAO zedonggg! rofl!

how hilarious

2007-07-02T06:01:00.000-09:30

.... and it goes on.

14) love is more than a kiss, a hug and a couple of fucks.
its all about you.

15) 3months isnt alot. thats the only time we're ever gonna be apart.
cos we'll have 3centuries more together. and after that,
we'll be buried beside eachother for 3millenium more.

16) i dont like you wearin transparent tees or short shorts. bcos i dont
like others to feast on you. Cmon. youre labelled: slp's.

17) i dont care if you roll over and fall aslp whenever i text you at nite,
i'll be happy to be on the fone wiv you, listening to you breathe and
sleep.

18) i know how impt your family is to you. so believe me, when you need
to make a choice and find it difficult to come to a decision. i'll help
you to decide and make the first move.

19) i dont dig soccer as much as you do. well, but for you. maybe i'll
try to learn all about the sport that requires 20 men runnin after
one white ball. and why they cant bounce the ball.

20) i wish i was more sensible. less sensitive. more loving.
and not just some mean loving machine.

21) your eyes are hazel brown under the sunlight. and darkbrown on
the normal. blackishbrown when they shine.

22) you touch your hair more than the no. of times you visit the
washroom everyday.

23) you have highly reactive cheeks that blushes when agitated.

24) the mirror is your next best friend next to your comb.

25) 'sarang heyo' is the last song you mentioned you want me to sing
to you. and that, i will do.

26) youre a cellphone-handicapped. you cant leave without your cell.
you check your fone every 5min when youre out just for the sake
of checking.

27) one last time; theres no others. not the first. not the 2nd. nor the
3rd. there's only you. im positive other's have nothing to say about
ME liking ANOTHER cos i do not.

dearest, i love you (:

dreams

2007-07-01T09:07:00.000-09:30

couple of funny incidents today.

had dinner @ ritz carlton awhile ago.

funny incident no.1
me,cheh and ling were in the toilet before dinner at RC.
yes. only the 3ofus were in the toilet.
there were 3 mirrors. so we each took 1. i took the 2nd one
of cause. was standing a lil further back than the other two chaps.
thennnnn, this caucasian opened the door. stared at me for a split sec, went out again,
double-checked the sign behind the door , smiled and came in. wtheck-.-

funny incident no.2
finished dinner. me. boy and ling went to the toilet AGAIN.
the 2 small ones went in first. i went in last. the cleaner saw me..
and said. " sorry sir. guys' ones are next door to the left. "
ling burst out laughing and replied matter-of-factly " she's not a boy."
cleaner." O.O oooh! im SO sorry. cos of your hair luhh! so short. i dint see clearly.. " haahaha.-.- thanks huh.
so i replied matter-of-factly, " oh. nvm. its okay. i know im very handsome. " and the teen girls in the toilet laughed and carry on staring at me for the next few mins. VERY FUNNY -.-

dumb short hair. please grow luhh.
i got chased out from the girls' toilet. -.-
wtf? ROAR. laugh luhh laughh. tsk.
i know im very amusing. -.-

neways, wenna bas today. saw a couple of matches.
prettaye nice. kinda miss playin ball. small girl & all were there too.
met ppl from other schools there too. haha. haven seen them in quite awhile... ( yes, WEENA. i saw you a few hours back too! rofl. )
haha. xiaohei finished studyin more than half of chem already.
gave me a BIG shock :)) well done miss black! :D

headed to yishun to catch prawns after meal. from 9plus till 1plus2. it aint farnie okay. i caught only ONE. stupid prawn. got fed up.wenna cycle bicycle instead! ended taking the tray for serving drinks to catch prawn. caught like 4others! rofl. got scolded by the Uncle there though. HECK. :D its MY prawns. i OWNED them okay. you dope!

its 2.47am in the mornin.
im still stucked on history. shall finish the SEQ and leave the SBQ
for 2mr. really kinda shagged. dearest fell aslp halfway. hahaha.
that poor thing. waited for me to get home and then, PLOPP. she falls
onto the bed and slept. big sleepyhead.

national museum and muveeess for me later in the day. WHOO. looking forward to it man. :DDDD

hello dearest :))
thanks for staying up. im sorry you cant get me on the phone tonite.
was really busy and all.
i miss you though. candycoatedd dreams man. :))

right

2007-06-29T06:18:00.000-09:30

how about you?

school was pretty fine i guess?
the kids at the back played ' colours ' today. wtheck. i swear it was hilarious. lessons were dry as usual. cant fall aslp though. im seated right at the front. recess was crappy. cup noodles + luncheon meat + sausages = 5000kg of salt or smthng liddat. efffin salty pls. almost died after that luhh.
chemistry was HILARIOUS. talked bout gold-digging. anal tear. funny abbreviations. pervertic ones too. wtheck. stefng, youre the ULTIMATE man! rofl!
great commotion outside school today. sigh. same guy. same ppl. same situation. same ending. what's new? shrugs.
headed home in the rain. drenched.cold.miserable.cold.cold.cold.
finished my cv. load of crap. wtheck. i sound like some ego-centric freak uhh. AHHH.
and JUSTINWONG. im so gonna get you CHEWing GUMS dopeshit, please man. -.- cut down okay!! ((:

'i don't care who likes you. who thinks you're pretty or whatever.
what's important is that you like ME. not them. not him. not her. savvy ?

:C

2007-06-28T05:17:00.000-09:30

its blabbering. saying teasing mocking her.
her forsaken soul. her blistered body.
her broken voice. her shattered heart.
her lonesome shadow. her bloodshot eyes.

I don't give a damn about you
No nothing can change my mind
No way I'm happy just to let you walk away
Don't think about you at night
I'm happy to be alone It's ok
But that was yesterday and now
I'm Driving in my car
Words don't get me far
When they don't mean shit
Ooooooh!....

"that lie, and cog, and flout, deprave, and slander"
"C'mon, go anticly, and show outward hideousness."

cos i dont think that my heart can take much more.

emoing

2007-06-28T02:31:00.000-09:30

HELLO. im BACK. and quite NORMAL.
becos Bimbo's got me thinking for the past two nights
about my results and all. YEAH.
and she's absolutely right.
she said..... . .. hmm. HEY.
why would YOU wanna know what she said? they're for ME? and ME only? xD hahaha. i'll tell you later.

Anyway, i've been Emo-ing. and it Aint my fault.
its either the red flood's comin or the stress 's hitting me.
but i guess the mornin spent at my bimbo's place made me
feel ALOT better and at ease. i've no idea why.
maybe her house has some aroma therapy thingy or
mayb SHE IS the aroma therapy that i needed. hahaha.

see. i feel like him. tsk .

OH oh OH OH OH OH! and i finally complete my social studies. gosh. can die man. -.- almost killed me. now its history time! 2 SBQ and 2 SEQ! hahaha. i die-ed. ROAR. okay. that's about all. i miss certain people. (psst. i miss you too luhh dope! -.- ) peace! ( i've been seeing so much peace keeping crap in ss this two days and alot of the UN in ss AND history these 3days i get cracked up )

'believe me when i say, i feel myself going jelly in the legs when i see you smiling ((: and thanks for everything. you have no idea how much you've helped. like yeahs. thanks thanks, that kinda thing? haha. all the love dearest! and hey? chill bout yr papers aye? i'll be your atm if you ever end up sweeping floors. rofl. no,kiddin. its just midyrs. we'll mug hard together. loves! (:

hahaha

2007-06-26T04:29:00.000-09:30

OUCH. i think thats my conscience pricking me.

8weeks. 7weeks. 8weeks. 7weeks. 6weeks plus.
haha. thanks teachers. so tell me, how long more are we away from our prelims?

i like social studies.
it never fails to make me WAKE UP. WAKE UP. WAKE UP.

its not funny.
im not feelin okay. i feel f*rked up. totally.
because i cant seem to remember everything that i've learnt.

f*rk.
im glad im not in this alone.
so cute. we're exactly 4months away from Olvls.
(dont be stupid, of cause its less than that. obviously. )

8weeks till prelims.
3weeks after that till O's.

hello girl. i miss you. badly.
you're the only reason why im still sane.

best of luck for exams ((:

PICTURES TIME!

2007-06-22T06:24:00.000-09:30

I PROMISE FOREVER

funny conversation between me and mom.
*the following is in chinese and trust me, the spectators arnd us were laughing their head off when she said what she said. wtheck!

mum: hey how. you look like boy leh! how i go out with you 2mr? after think i go with a boy how?!?!

me: huh? no luhh. will grow one luh! wlao. keep sayin my hair!

mum: please hor, 2mr go out better hold my hand understand ?

me: *gives puzzled look* huh. why?! for what?!

mum: so that ppl will know i YANG " XIAO BAI LIAN " luhh!

me: -.- WALAOOOOOOOO!!! *whines*

mum: you better not call me mummy in front everyone 2mr! call me " DARLING" okay?!

yeahs. thanks huh mom. i dont look like some xiao bai lian luhh! RAHH!

ALRIGHT! time for MANY MANY MANY PICTURES!! HAHA. xDDD

went for a haircut @ far east today. bloodyhell. i've got very little fringe, almost NO sideburnt and a clean decent slope with a straight cut at the back! WTHECK. i look like a very DECENT LOOKING BOY luhh! ZOMGGG. hair please grow. please grow please grow. well, it aint tht bad. but i need it to grow. UNCLE SAM LUHH! cut till so short. the first cut he made was to cut off my tail at the back. so HELL. you cut one side already, the WHOLE back must cut already whattttt........ =.= TSK! ahh heck.

hang arnd the mall with C and rachel. golly, took damn hell LOADSA pictures. that crazy rachel laughs like as if no one can hear her liddat luhh! hahaha. and yeah man, thanks to her great photography skills, me and C have quite a neat no. of pictures now. xDD

anyway, its REALLY HILARIOUS to have a PARTNER that talks like you, acts like you, thinks like you and look ABIT like you. GEEEEs. how adorable luhh. ahhhhhhhh wellll. so neways. pictures coming up! :DD

just to entertain you people! hahaa. there you gooooo!!!!

hey, half the time, we dint know what we were posing too. that funnyarse rachel took alot of random pictures when we were talking. but ahh well, turned out prettaye well dint it? haha! ((: thanks man RACHEL! :DDD

ps: the butterscotch latte at the basement of fareast FREAKIN rocks !!!

hahaha

2007-06-21T02:07:00.000-09:30

hello HELLO hello! :DDD

haha. OH HAPPY DAY~!! im happy today. bcos i wenna my bimbo's hse! okay. mornin LOVE-MAKIN was unsuccessful bcos that was a HUGE&DISTRACTIVE lightbulb around. grumbles! hahaha. but nehmind, afternoon's one better hor bimbo hor? XDDDD headed home. den came out again, bcos GERMAINE GAN tht tootster who goes arnd the hse on my neck wanna play badminton! AYEEE. bimbo wrote me an ULTRA LONG letter today. AWWW. how sweet! swweeeeeeeeeeeet sweeeeeeeeeet sweeeeeeeeeeeet! nods. loveyouman* :)))

okay! shall post randomn pics here man. :DDDD

<------ class gathering of 6integrity 2oo3

<<-- my beloved zhujun cum (x)case who created my blog for me! rofl!

<--- jess. tablemate! rofl. big baboon gorilla kinda girl ya know? :DDD

okay. im bored. so i shall stop. will be back alrite. promise! and tell me. would YOU prefer a brand new accoustic GUITAR or upgrade a current quite new samsung mp3(say, about half a year?) to the new ipod mp4? gees. wtheck. gimme your opinions man people!! urgent urgent urgent!

right. now im gonna slp. and wake up to study later. only the girl by the name of cheryl gan is allowed to CALL AND DISTURB ME. boys, don be stupid. call and pretend to sound a girl wouldn help. dope. rofl. the rest. sms can luhh. if you call, and i wake up. hURR. for those of you who know my quirky temper when im woken up.. YEAH. watch out man. X_X okay. BYEE. xDDD

ilove my girlfriend!(as in stefthyname) because she freakin wrote me a DAMN SWWEEET TESTIMONIAL.
ilovemyboyfriend!(as in eileenlow) because she freakin told me she love me too.
haha. and finally, ilove COLLEENHUANG! :DDDDDDDD for no utmost reason. i just do luhh.
hahaha. and yes luhh BIMBO. i love you too! :DDDD loves!

zomgg

2007-06-19T23:18:00.000-09:30

zomg.

slp you lousy ass.
you freakin scare the hell outta your girl luhh.
stupid. cry what cry. tsk.

im glad all's fine now.
i have no regards for whats gonna happen.
im jus gonna be glad that at this very moment, youre here with me.

silly girl.
be strong. brace yourself.

you know we'll be able to make it. :))

and thanks all for bein so concern! hahaa. im seriously okay already. no worries man.
jus needa slp and all alrite. love you ppl man!! ;DDD

stupid shit.

2007-06-19T06:02:00.001-09:30

and you called.

so i cried some more.

goner

2007-06-19T05:06:00.001-09:30

goddamnit. i have no mood to blog. but anyway, jus crap a lil.

first of all.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTINWONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;DDDDDD

okay. right. thats all i have.

haha. look. tears. wow.
its been awhile since i saw these stuff coming out from me.
i thought i was heartless. gees.

see. i love you.
because these precious stuffs are coming out for you.

and i never knew i loved you this much. until today, when it actually hurt so bad, i ended up crying. yes, for you. silly.

dont be paranoid anymore.
i'll take whatever thats coming. we'll take whatever thats coming.

well, im grateful. for the past 2months or so.
and im glad we had a shot at this together. not bad of a choice aye? haha.
nothing much to regret about anyway. i guess. loves.

(':

'silly girl. i love you like shit. it hurts. to even think.

golly

2007-06-18T05:43:00.000-09:30

CHERYL GAN!

YOU MAKE MY DAY luhhhh.
like EVERY SINGLE DAY LUHHH. xDDDD
I DONT SAY IT ,DOESNT MEAN you DONT okay?!

bcos..
somethings are just so close to me, its heartfelt. kept hidden. and its what i want to keep it to myself. just for me, myself and i.
baby, its more than words.

i love you, and you better know it.

hello gorgeous

2007-06-18T04:26:00.000-09:30

insomnia

slept around 5plus in the mornin. goodness. whats with the sudden surge of insecurity and frustration that swept me off my feet then man? guess i gave c quite a shock. that poor girl, stayed up till im aslp just to cheer me up. and yeahs, trust me, just by being there, crapping, listening to me, laughing with me, laughing at me, whatever. it helps okay. like a great deal. i felt so much better after that. like someone has just taken a heavy load off my back literally. (im beginning to doubt whether i'll be able to make it, without you.)

woke up at 920? haha. bathed and pulled a plain tee over. too tired to dress up. am too shagged. sppse to meet boyfriend at tpy around 1015? we both ended up late. then girlfriend called, it became 1045 becos shes meetin up w us too. so yeahs. met brian at esplanade around 11plus? that stupid boy, dint do any of his homework. dint do much there anyway, was really sleepy. did like 2qns? and tried to sleep. cant though. uncomfortable. sinying came to join us soon after that. tired tired tired!

we left the goddamn cold place after an hr or so and headed to marina square for lunch at bk. rofl. had great fun talking and laugin through lunch. like how goodlookin girls always endup with ugly boyfriends(brian grumbles that even ugly ppl also can get gf, why cant he? tsk!) and vice versa. which i thought was really kinda true? ohoh. and how we find it REALLY INTERESTING to look at someone very ugly or very fat. like we'll stare and wonder " how in the WORLD can someone be tht ugly? " or " how the HELL can you eat THAT MUCH to become liddat? " rofl. yes ppl, im a critique. but hey, no hard feelings. we're jus fooling arnd okay. i mean afterall, how your soul's look is the utmost important part of a person man. nods- ( and dear c, i know youre shaking your head in disagreement to what im saying bcos you know i suffer from serious LOOKISM. haha!)

cabbed to tuition after lunch. craps. fell aslp on the cab. am THAT shagged okay. had 3hrs of tuition straight. tht prettaye girl made me coffee and laughed at my silly mistakes so much i ended up laughing like crazy too. ahh well. hung arnd her place for a lil while after that to play her psp. GEES. i WANT ONE TOO! seems fun luhhh. ( but if i ever have one, gone case man. i'll be oblivious to everything arnd me man!) but still, i want one i want one. tsk. i want alot things. but heck. no money. so shant think.

c's out with her family today. haha. its cute luhh the way her family functions. ahh well. at least much better than mine? i mean. so what if there's money&stuffs. family obviously means much more than that. ahh hell. shant think.

amaths reexam 2mr. shouldn've told brian it aint counted! that idiot refuse to study after that luhh. haha. yeahs. ((: thats about all for today. aint much. the townies made my day though. AYEEE.

anyway, check out brian's blog man! really good music, good videos, good voices !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

i will follow him

2007-06-16T21:57:00.000-09:30

I LIKE MY BLOG SONG. DONT YOU LIKE IT TOO? I DONT CARE. YOU BETTER FREAKIN FINISH LISTENING BECOS ITS NICENICENICENICE NICEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! :DDDDDDDDDDDD LOVES PEOPLE!!! HAHAHAHAHA. ENJOY.

best i ever had

2007-06-16T04:12:00.000-09:30

ps: this is for you.

its been quite awhile since we got together now. and im glad to announce, yes, we've survived whatever that we've been through so far(which isnt alot. but hey, they're enough to tell me, yes, youre the someone i'll be able to make it through with if we both try hard enough). and thank you very much, for standing alongside me, not giving up. not walking away. not leaving me behind when i dump you with all my nonsense.

life's been great ever since you came into the picture.

life's been greater after you came into the picture.

life's at its best now that you're in the picture. and no, don't go any soon.

laughters exist everywhere when theres you. durin the busrides. durin the train rides. at home. on the phone. through the webcam. via sms. or even when we aint talking nor communicating. haha. probably bcos you're always doing/saying/whining ridiculous retarded stuffs that really tickle me inside. youre like that biggg sun up there that doesnt take a break at night, constantly brightening up my life. ( seesee. fried egg! ) or mayb you just have alot of potential to be a clown! hahaha! okayokay. :X

and i haven any idea what i'll be now without you. yes, true, i will survive without you. but thats not the point. the point is. i can live without you. but i don't want to live without you. this is what i've told you many times. and i dont care if youre sicked of it. im saying it again. (BLEH)

despite all our differences, all the night quarrells, all the ignoring on my side, all the tears on yours(yes people, im mean. i make people i love cry. condemn me), we made it through. i know i've never been the great one in this r/s, my foul temper, my childishness at times. my insensitivity to your feelings. ( hahaha, to those who already know, yes, i can FEEL you nodding your head becos i know you guys know im a woodblock coming to rs)

but i'll try to do better. to listen clearer. to comprehend faster. to infer more(hopefully correctly. or else...). to know more. to understand more. to be more tolerant. to be more mild tempered.to give in more. to be more mature. to be more pleasant(actually, im already quite pleasant what. right? ) because thats what i wanna do. i wanna do everything that pleases you. i wanna know everything about you. about your friends. about your family. anything(stupid, my girlfriend doesn sell canned drinks okay. nor does the canned drinks taste like her. nor does the content inside possess the same name as her. but hey, maybe she
'll give you the same rush of adrenaline like the canned drinks does aye? haha!) about you. see, its all about you.

throw away all your insecurities. its a guarantee on my side that i wouldnt go astray cos of another party. well bcos, i seriously cant be bothered with any others. what for? they don't even know me. i dont need them. i dont want them. they're just passerby who happen to take a sudden keen interest in me thats probably just gonna last for a couple of days and poof, gone with the wind they'll be. i love my life now. i love my friends, i love my family (this, im tryin really hard. haha. ) and most importantly, i love you. (duhh right? the gist of this post is you? )

and eventhough there isnt any certainty in whatever thats ahead of us, hell with it. i'll be fine as long as youre here with me. yes. thats assurance. thats how sure, how affirm, how determined i can be. but obviously, it take two hands to clap, two party to commit. to devote. to give in. and youre the one in line for this bond to stay strong. last long. run deep. run steady. aye?

once again, thank you for everything.

for being the one who ..

text me everyday to greet me good morning

text me everynite to put me in bed in soft supple sweetness

make me laugh&smile with all your sillyness

make me melt&wanna die because of your high sugar content and endless whines that i've never failed to be defeated by(i've always thought whining to get your way is cheating okay!! xD )

make me cry out loud when you nudge me in the ribs or just poke me in the stomach and giving me sudden tickles-attacks.

make me survive all the hardest times just by being there for me

make me really shock to know that you've got a sister thats being over friendly. haahahaha.

and im proud to say.
i love you.
i'll hate to have to leave you.
i'll hate it even more if you'll have to leave me.
i'll hate it crazy i make you cry through the night again.
i'll hate it crazy crazy if you suffer lonliness bcos of me.
i'll hate it reallyterribly crazy if you feel miserable&lousy cos of me.

see. now you know why there're green slips. and vouchers? haha!

yes.
im proud to call you MY GIRLFRIEND.
no, shes not just my lover. she's my girlfriend.

okay. i know talking so much wont help.
but i just feel like saying so much. cannot is it ? roar.
we'll let time show you my TRUE COLOURS okay ? :))
dont worry. im quite colourful. and i bet, you wont be disappointed at the end. :)))

had guess what. its gonna rain really soon. ha. you know why it rains. and what happens when it rains don't you? goodbye love. TTFN :D

'all that i am. all that i ever was, is here in your perfect eyes.

OH HAPPY DAY~!!!

2007-06-15T05:35:00.000-09:30

heyheyheyheyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!! aww man. okay, i had like SUPER LOADSA FUN today but im really really really tired out and exhausted probably because i had less than 3hrs of sleep this mornin. so aint gonna blog much. jus a TWEENY LIL BIT! will blog in detail another time about events today alrite? so mainly, i had my primary 6 class gathering today. freakit. at sentosa and once again, im quite sunburnt. okay wait. im sunburn-burnt. the previous ones aint completely healed yet and i went out to play in the scorching sun so yeahs, serve me right but heck it. i love my primary school mates man. they're GAY & NICE & FUN & CRAPPY & RIDICULOUS & RETARDED!!!! HAHAHA. so why not man? ((: so anyway, i've only got a couple of pics at hand so far that colleen had taken. (PSST! shes obsessed with me luhh. i SWEAR. CROSSMYHEART she is LUHH. but that's fine. im kinda obsessed with her too! HAHAHAHA.) the rest aint ready yet so..... ENJOY!! OH. and i saw a RAINBOW todayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ! YAY!!!! GEES. plus colleen thinks C's sexaye. ROFL. thats really farnie though i dont deny it! XDDD

see. i said colleen is obsessed with me. you dont believe. see seee seee!!

another picture taken by my stalker of the day!! haha. she named this the " SEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH " picture! :DDDDDD

thats joycelyn. aww. that idiot. went missing since god knows when and finally appear again today after god knows how long. love her style aye?

mr qixiong! hahaha. he's the highlight of the day. no, i mean, literally. his shirt is so FREAKIN striking cos its LUMINOUS ORANGE we could see him the moment we set foot on the beach!!! ROFL.

FINALLY. my DEAREST stalker of the day along side me. adorable aint she? (: hush. tell no one. but i've been inlove with her since the day we shared 9 ___________. rofl! and if you believe me, youre dumb&crazy luhh. but yeahs, i do love her :DD ( see colleen, i love you!)

OHOH. and the shades you see? its COLLEEN'S! that remind me. i WANT MY TOPSHOP SHADES!! WROARRRRRR!!!!!! okay. that's all. byebye. hahaaahhahaha.

bloodties

2007-06-14T00:25:00.001-09:30

okay man. decided to blog about my family. rofl. okay. posted quite a few pictures below. and sadly, chehcheh's picture aint there because she was the one who took the pictures! hahaha!! these pics were dated quite a few weeks back? when we had dinner @ shangri-la for fun. ayeee.. had some great fun there! so there you go, i love my family. so you should too right? hehhs. okay. maybe you shouldnt. but C should. hor C, hor ? rofl!

Daddy and his 'buai song' face!!!

UNGLAM mother!

hey. shes pretty alright? just that she look like some gangster here. and for those of you guys who actually know her, you'll know that shes actually quite fierce? okay. not quite. like VERY VERY fierce. but ahhh heck. rofl.

yes yes, that's yours truly. and i shant comment about it! HAHA.

THATS ms SNGYILING ! hey! she eat alot please! she eat alot alot luhh! greedy pig!!

and finally, thats my lil spoilt-brat brother whom alot of your will find cute but i find him irresistably annoying and irritating!!! grrrr!!!

and okay. so here's one on chehcheh and lil bro cause that stupid woman dont take solo pictures. which is a good thing too. cos the camera might seriously break down or something if i aint in the picture with her to balance up the 'evil force within' hahahah! :D:D:D okay man. yes, i am shameless. shameful. funny. retarded. yada yada. BYE. that's all folks. ENJOY!

SEX ICON

2007-06-13T23:58:00.000-09:30

CURRENT ADDICTION

Summer Love lyrics

Ridin' in the drop top with the top down
Saw you switchin' lanes girl
Pull up to the red light, lookin' right
Come here, let me get your name girl
Tell me where you from, what you do, what you like
Let me pick your brain girl

And tell me how they got that pretty little face
on that pretty little frame girl

But let me show you 'round, let me take you out
Bet you we could we could have some fun girl
'Cause we can do it fast (fast), slow,
whichever way you wanna run girl
But let me buy you drinks, better yet rings
Do it how you want it done girl
And who would've thought that you could be the one
'cause I

I can't wait to fall in love with you
You can't wait to fall in love with me
This just can't be summer love, you'll see
This just can't be summer love (L-O-V-E)

Come on and lemme show you 'round
Let me take you out,
bet you we could have some fun girl
'Cause we can dress it up, we can dress it down
Any way you want it done girl
Or we can stay home, talkin' on the phone
Rappin' 'til we see the sun girl

Do what I gotta do, just gotta show you that
I'm the one girl
Well I'mma freak you right, each and every night
I know how to do it insane girl

'Cause I can make it hot, make it stop
Make you wanna say my name girl
Come on baby please 'cause I'm on my knees
Can't get you off my brain girl
But who would've thought that you could be the one
'cause I

I can't wait to fall in love with you
You can't wait to fall in love with me
This just can't be summer love, you'll see
This just can't be summer love (L-O-V-E)
'Cause I can't wait to fall in love with you
You can't wait to fall in love with me
This just can't be summer love, you'll see
This just can't be summer love (L-O-V-E)

The summer's over for the both of us
But that doesn't mean we should give up on love
You're the one I've been thinking of
And I knew the day I met you you'd be the one

maybe. perhaps. i dont know.

2007-06-13T05:42:00.000-09:30

hoho. highlight of the day 1 :

ms sng yiling sprained her ankle and grabbed me SO hard when we visit the sinseh i almost went red. GOLLY. she got injured even earlier than me when i was in sec1! well done sister. anyway, shes real good? (: im freakin proud of her luhh. even though she can be quite a brat at times. AYEE.

hohoho. highlight of the day 2:

my DEAREST BIMBO actually picked up the knife and cut ginger today! WHOA. can you imagine that?!?! goodness. goodness. goodness. anyway, who put ingredients for the soup in BIT BY BIT? how cute is that man! awww!! rofl. BIMBO indeed. loveyou man.

hohohoho. highlight of the day 3:

i spent an ENTIRE DAY doing NOTHING but playing NEOPETS! (yes silly, i created an account out of pure boredom.) god bless me, im so gonna failed my reexam cos i freakin cant remember anything bout all the stuffs i've learnt. okay. whats new? "god bless me" reminds of my girlfriend. that idiot was whining like crazy after our midyr english paper and said something like " wlao! **** luhh. god got use ah?! god give me a1 ah! god give you money give you food to eat huh?! BEEP BEEP BEEEP! " rofl. yes. and it goes on mind you. it didnt stop there.

hohohoho. highlight of the day 4:

i HAPPEN to be in QUITE A **** UP MOOD now because im freakin bein ignored. WTHECK. so i really cant be bothered w anything. freak it. i wanna slp. and i don care if youre gonna gimme 27missed calls. im gonna slp slp slp!

okay. im pretty crazy now. jus ignore me for awhile. cos im VENTING. yes. that's what a blog is for what. crazy fellas. you guys must be quite bored too if you happen to be reading my blog? and once again. JUSTINWONG'S BLOG is providing me laughter&entertainment. and THAT reminds me of my freakin chinese homework. RAHHHH.

okay. i miss my classmates. rofl. this is freakin random. sighs. SEE. friends are better than lovers. even though lovers are good too. but friends are better. bcos they'll ALWAYS be there. applause for my peers.

there you go. the best of the best of the best of the best. right. aniwae. i miss my bimbo tooo. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr. okay. shall pick out a random pic to put up here too? yes i know you'll agree that shes pretty&all. ahh wtheck. who cares what you think anyway. tsk.

prettaye right?!?! yes i know. no need you to see. i've got eyes. probably gonna get scolded by that bimbo for putting her pic up here. but ahh. i dnno man. just feel like it.rofl. okay. thats all. i needa sleep. BYE BYE BYE BYE!! BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeEEEEEEEEE!

a tribute to all

2007-06-12T03:47:00.001-09:30

seems like all that has happened in my past 3yrs in secondary happened just yesterday. yet today, i awake to a new me, new life and new faces. its funny how im sitting here, reminising about how stuffs used to be.

golly. to my teammates.
i miss you guys. great deal. but we're just so different now, im so different now. everyone has changed. but hey, there're things i swear i'll never forget. like how we used to slog it out during the cgirls tournament two yrs back and attitude our new coaches. how we were so notorious in school everyone seems to be intimidated by us (or so we thought). dominating the same two tables in the canteen during recess. skipping classes. skipping school (okay, this is just me. haha.) god, the arrogance&defiance of us all. ahh well. still, im sorry i didnt give my best for the recent two yrs. guess its probably cause i aint good enough and i cant really fit in. plus the fact that i suffer from serious character-problem awhile back which took me awhile to change and yes, thank goodness, i've changed. rofl. but hey guys, you're being missed very much indeed. the irony of bein not-close yet closer now is highly amusing at times. we could be always sitting next to eachother then yet not know the least of whats going on about eachother's life. nor do we really care. but now that we're further apart, the concern seems to be much stronger and for that case, more real. more sincere.

and to my ex classmates
jesus. for those that i've never been close with before. man, im sorry i overlooked you guys then. golly. but hey, cmon. i hope we'll clique better now if we ever happen to be in the same class or whatsoever again man. to my best 4pals then. yesyes. chris, mydear. edeline,mydarling. meh, mysextalk tablemate(hahaha!). bloodyhell. i miss you guys like crazy! and im glad we're still kinda close together eventhough we don't see eachother much. yeahs. trust me man, i'll cherish you guys. more than before! loves man!

,,, to my current classmates.
you guys rock my pants luhh. like totally. hell. if it werent for you guys, i would never have realised how bad i used to be, how much i've missed out on certain things due to my past r/s(s) and struggle with the bball team. gees. everyday with you people are like fulfilling and entertaining. and im glad there's only 2guys in the class luhh. makes bonding so much easier too. rofl. trust me man, you guys are the best ever. okay. simply unforgettable :)) yeahyeah. every single one of you luhh. no one's left out here. there aint no nerds in our class, only studious cool geeks who shocks the hell outta the streetkids(us) when they open their mouth to speak luhh! hahaha! especially yahui. golly, gave me a shock the other time when she spoke up for us luhh. ohoh. and our gadget freak singyee! hell. loveyou babes man!

and finally, to my current biggestlove.
okay, nothing much to say luhh. i talk to you everyday please! ^^
just know that i love you and if you ask nicely enough, i'll return you your 27million alrite? rofl. loves!

blended brain juices

2007-06-12T01:10:00.000-09:30

okay man. boringggggg day. let's see. abit of english's done. so is abit of amaths. emaths's almost done. abit of chinese's done. geography is UNDONE. ss is UNDONE too. so is both chem&physics. rofl. thanks man. let's see how much i can squeeze in later man. terrible..... okay. i've got spammers already. big thanks to bel&simin! rofl. i guess that's how all the stmargs girls choose to say hello&tag. wtheck! okay. and to catch a GOOD LAUGH. please go link to JUSTINWONG'S BLOG because the things he posted is horribly hilarious! aint much to talk about. will try to blog again later? my brain is temporarily not functioning properly and permanently damaged. so ciao y'all.

tell me how they 've got that prettaye lil face on that prettaye lil frame(:

gimme novacaine

2007-06-11T01:07:00.000-09:30

alright man. decided to blog before i head to bed for a quick nap.golly, freakin tired. okay, not freakin. just quite. hahaha. been lack of slp for a couple of nights now, but well, that's fine. thats what holis are for anyway aint it ?

yeahs. my biggestlover came over to camp last night. man, that lady arrived at 11.50pm at night while im in the midst of watching a rather freaky horror film. bloodyhell. i jumped the moment my phone vibrated luhh. ahh well. so guess what, we spent time switching from channels to channels, laughing and talking, hugging and lying on eachother till we decided to head to bed. (and sweetest, quit mocking&teasing man!)

but anyway, we dint manage to sleep till 5plus in the morning. gosh. and waking up at 11plus hours later didnt help much since after that, we engaged ourselves in longlong aimless conversations till 1plus and went down for lunch.

headed back up to the couch for an afternoon siesta after lunch for about an hour or so. woke up and finished my compre with that lil girl still asleep. pig luhh, totally. rofl. so yeahs. that's about all for last night.

man. i've got tonnes & tonnes of homework undone and incomplete i feel like banging my head against the wall everytime i look at them luh. wtheck. sigh. and re-exam is around the corner, i doubt i'll be able to revise all the chapters in time, so shall just revise those that dint came out for midyrs. man, i miss my classmates. damn loads. rofl. that dumb steph with all her spilling vulgarities, car & peiwen, angelina, charmaine, pinglynn, man i miss you ppl!! ohhoh. and my dearest boyfriend,eileen. man. plus justin that skinny and mr brian has been m-i-a since god-knows-when man luhh! tsk. so yeahs. i miss all of them. including jess,sindy and all! sulks. i wanna go back to school. seems so much better than rotting at home.

help me man somebody. i'll pay you to do my homework. hurr. i dreamt of MS K. again!! wtheck! she's a constant reminder to my ss homework luhh. i'll die really soon if i go on dreaming of her. rofl. this is crazy man.

and to my biggestlover, dont be silly. if im gonna stop loving you after leaving you for 4days, killme man. i aint that kinda dope okay? winks- thanks for the 27pages. they are as enlightening as the bible, as entertaining as the comics and as tender-loving as every kiss you plant on me okay? golly. now you know why the hell im taking literature. rofl.

right. i needa nap. quite badly. needa finish my oral qns later. like day5-8.. irritating craps. tuition at 11 tomorrow. damn it. pray hard that i'll be able to finish my amaths hols assignment there. right man. loves ppl!

looking forward to parrians reunion on friday! sentosa people! :D

back to square one

2007-06-10T03:38:00.001-09:30

oh alrite. man. all thanks to zhujun. this freakin blog is done! rofl. uh huh. after like god knows how long i've been contemplating with the idea of making up a blog, its done!! yay. finally man. okay, so it isnt quite complete yet but hey, its quite decent aint it? right man. i haven got much to say now. so just come over and tag a lil here and there aye? loves man!

HUGE THANKS TO ZHUJUN!! :DDDD love you like LOADS!